louder than sirens louder than bells
There's this certain issue that bothers me for some time already.
I've always used to have a great communication with my intuition. While making decisions important to my mind and soul I've always felt certain this is the best of decisions. I felt what to do and what's not the best option. I was at peace.
For a year or so, all I do is worry. With each month I worry more and more. I'm almost never certain. At best I feel nothing. I can't tell what's good for me. It scares me, really, it scares me that there is no communication between me and my intuition. It's even complicated for me to separate this uncertainty from any other of my feelings.
The thing is that after one day at philology I decided to quit it. I felt despair, I felt miserable when I was there. When I left philology to get on a lecture at ethnology, deciding I am not coming back I felt relieved, calm and even happy.
Now the certainty is gone again. It's not that I doubt my decision or I want to come back, sooner hell freezes over. I know it's a right call.
All I want is my inner voice to speak to me back again.
I've always used to have a great communication with my intuition. While making decisions important to my mind and soul I've always felt certain this is the best of decisions. I felt what to do and what's not the best option. I was at peace.
For a year or so, all I do is worry. With each month I worry more and more. I'm almost never certain. At best I feel nothing. I can't tell what's good for me. It scares me, really, it scares me that there is no communication between me and my intuition. It's even complicated for me to separate this uncertainty from any other of my feelings.
The thing is that after one day at philology I decided to quit it. I felt despair, I felt miserable when I was there. When I left philology to get on a lecture at ethnology, deciding I am not coming back I felt relieved, calm and even happy.
Now the certainty is gone again. It's not that I doubt my decision or I want to come back, sooner hell freezes over. I know it's a right call.
All I want is my inner voice to speak to me back again.