love me till my heart stops
Well, conversations.
I had many conversations with Private these days. Most of them was about how stupid I am not to accept myself. About things I need to face and I need to do it fast, if I want a change to come.
Well, I want to.
The others were about us. Well, it made me feel sad, Private feels as if I crossed him out of my problems, setting a line that he cannot cross. It makes him feel useless, makes him feel helpless and abandoned.
And he feels I want to avoid living with him.
So now I have to think about it, all of it, and make sure he knows I belong to him and that he is my shelter.
I don't know where it comes from, that I build a shelter around myself and keep everything to me. I think it doesn't matter now. What matters is that it's wrong. I'm not out of porcelain, opening myself to someone I trust and counting on this somebody won't kill me.
On the other hand, it might help me.
I had many conversations with Private these days. Most of them was about how stupid I am not to accept myself. About things I need to face and I need to do it fast, if I want a change to come.
Well, I want to.
The others were about us. Well, it made me feel sad, Private feels as if I crossed him out of my problems, setting a line that he cannot cross. It makes him feel useless, makes him feel helpless and abandoned.
And he feels I want to avoid living with him.
So now I have to think about it, all of it, and make sure he knows I belong to him and that he is my shelter.
I don't know where it comes from, that I build a shelter around myself and keep everything to me. I think it doesn't matter now. What matters is that it's wrong. I'm not out of porcelain, opening myself to someone I trust and counting on this somebody won't kill me.
On the other hand, it might help me.