no more missions of mercy
i'm not going on any more missions of mercy. if you can't take care of yourself, well, all i'll offer now is some advice for how to cope, or an open ear, but it's just gotten silly lately. likewise, i will no longer be fighting the self fulfilling prophecies i have thrown at me from others; thus, i will no longer work to help people escape their ever narrowing reality tunnels...
because the cost and benefit to my energetic core just ain't right. i might fit all the symptoms, but i'm not a god damned vampire, and i'm not gonna spend my energies making people aware of the broader picture anymore. from here on in, unless someone manages to illicit a deep interest or spite, i'm gonna let whoever else is in the conversation determine its depth.
and don't get me wrong, i probably love everyone who's reading this: that hasn't changed. i'm just gonna be up front about my nature as a Switch.
[a switch in the bdsm community is one who is neither top nor bottom, slave nor master, but a fuse and flow between them all]
i'm pulling a sub move, because i'm herein forcing others to control how deep or strange the conversation gets; and it's a dom move (upon myself) because this will be just about the first time in my life i don't work like a slave to the ideal of helping everyone around me attain a greater sense of peace (as i never knew was an optional response until recently) and it gives me control over how invested i become in any conversation (there's no sense in talking if the other person doesn't get the point, and there's no sense listening if they're going to lie or omit).
sure, i might be kinda intimidating sometimes, but i'm sick of self absorbed cowards.
because the cost and benefit to my energetic core just ain't right. i might fit all the symptoms, but i'm not a god damned vampire, and i'm not gonna spend my energies making people aware of the broader picture anymore. from here on in, unless someone manages to illicit a deep interest or spite, i'm gonna let whoever else is in the conversation determine its depth.
and don't get me wrong, i probably love everyone who's reading this: that hasn't changed. i'm just gonna be up front about my nature as a Switch.
[a switch in the bdsm community is one who is neither top nor bottom, slave nor master, but a fuse and flow between them all]
i'm pulling a sub move, because i'm herein forcing others to control how deep or strange the conversation gets; and it's a dom move (upon myself) because this will be just about the first time in my life i don't work like a slave to the ideal of helping everyone around me attain a greater sense of peace (as i never knew was an optional response until recently) and it gives me control over how invested i become in any conversation (there's no sense in talking if the other person doesn't get the point, and there's no sense listening if they're going to lie or omit).
sure, i might be kinda intimidating sometimes, but i'm sick of self absorbed cowards.