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today I helped a friend get over first date jitters before her date with a boy that should have asked me out.
i'm an awesome friend, but being able to put aside my own feelings to help a friend in need doesn't stop me from having those feelings.
More later? probably not . I just like to document the times I put others before me to the point that I push myself aside; the times I make sure others are happy, safe, and taken care of at the expense of my own happiness, health, and safety, because I'm such a goddamn good friend.
which tends to backlash and make me a pretty bad friend a lot of the time because I'm so drained from battling myself: to do what's right, or to do what's right for me?
i'm an awesome friend, but being able to put aside my own feelings to help a friend in need doesn't stop me from having those feelings.
More later? probably not . I just like to document the times I put others before me to the point that I push myself aside; the times I make sure others are happy, safe, and taken care of at the expense of my own happiness, health, and safety, because I'm such a goddamn good friend.
which tends to backlash and make me a pretty bad friend a lot of the time because I'm so drained from battling myself: to do what's right, or to do what's right for me?