~Life~
I think that this will be my first journal entry that im actually writing to myself, i know people will see it but im honest and not afraid to show how i feel, just want to type some stuff down.
Today I got a note from Missy, basically it said that she still loves me, thinks that if we go out it will work out and that we are communicating better now, which we are, but Im still not sure if it would be good idea to go out with her, most of the reasons are:: 1)I cant just think of now I have to look ahead, she is moving and wont be going to this school after this year and her mom doesnt really let her go anywhere where boys are at, so I just think that we wouldnt be able to see each other much at all and calling is already difficult so seeing her would be next to impossible, looking ahead I think that it would be easier on her and me if we just let go now instead of getting very close and then enventually breaking up later, not that im saying that we would but the possibility is very high that we would. 2)I like other people now and I dont want to enter a relationship when im questioning what could have been, or if I truely love the person im going out with. 3)Im afraid to fall again, plain and simple.
Well thats one issue out, now for more.
Some people think that im not over Missy, in a way I am and not. I know that the probability of another try with her succeeding is very low because of some factors ive already talked about above and me coming to that conclusion and accepting it makes me somewhat over her. There are two things that will make me completely over her. 1) I find someone else to love. 2)Time, this one i dont like too much. Yes I really miss being with her but Im not sure if I just miss loving someone and having them close instead, might be both.
Now that thats outa the way...
I think that im just going to work with anything that life throws at me, the next relationship im in will be better, i hope, because ive learned a lot from my previous one. Im not going to go out with someone b4 I get to know them enough to have a decent conversation, Im going to trust that person more, i know that a dangerous idea but ill deal with it, and not let rumors or what ever other people influence me if there is a problem ill talk to them directly before I act or say anything.
Well I got other things to say but im just going to wait to say them...
Today I got a note from Missy, basically it said that she still loves me, thinks that if we go out it will work out and that we are communicating better now, which we are, but Im still not sure if it would be good idea to go out with her, most of the reasons are:: 1)I cant just think of now I have to look ahead, she is moving and wont be going to this school after this year and her mom doesnt really let her go anywhere where boys are at, so I just think that we wouldnt be able to see each other much at all and calling is already difficult so seeing her would be next to impossible, looking ahead I think that it would be easier on her and me if we just let go now instead of getting very close and then enventually breaking up later, not that im saying that we would but the possibility is very high that we would. 2)I like other people now and I dont want to enter a relationship when im questioning what could have been, or if I truely love the person im going out with. 3)Im afraid to fall again, plain and simple.
Well thats one issue out, now for more.
Some people think that im not over Missy, in a way I am and not. I know that the probability of another try with her succeeding is very low because of some factors ive already talked about above and me coming to that conclusion and accepting it makes me somewhat over her. There are two things that will make me completely over her. 1) I find someone else to love. 2)Time, this one i dont like too much. Yes I really miss being with her but Im not sure if I just miss loving someone and having them close instead, might be both.
Now that thats outa the way...
I think that im just going to work with anything that life throws at me, the next relationship im in will be better, i hope, because ive learned a lot from my previous one. Im not going to go out with someone b4 I get to know them enough to have a decent conversation, Im going to trust that person more, i know that a dangerous idea but ill deal with it, and not let rumors or what ever other people influence me if there is a problem ill talk to them directly before I act or say anything.
Well I got other things to say but im just going to wait to say them...