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Up until now, I haven't really gone back
to show any comparison between who
I am now, and who I was over a year
ago. I don't think that I was honestly any
different of a person at close to 300 lb,
but getting down to the 180's makes me
feel like I /look/ like a completely different
person.
Here are a few of my old photos, the better
ones mind you. I guess I'm trying to show
/why/ I feel the way I do most of the time,
it's a wierd and kind of drastic difference.
Now, I used to have many more, but
I tend to go on deleting sprees and
only leave the "best" in a set. The
otehr pictures that came with these
are ones I thought were too horrible
to even show. Okay, I'll admit that
the last one isn't of me. It's off
the common reaction right before
the adverage person man's the harpoons.
Here is me, the way I look today.
Picture quality, hair lenght, and amount
of smile may vary. c:
Unfortunately, I was never a person
who really held my weight well. /That/
probably makes up half of the difference.
My frame really can't hold more than 200
pounds without me feeling and showing
a lot of pain from it. Even at the weight
I am now, I feel like I'm dragging that
20 lb that I am over my height's recomended
weight. Granted, I'm thankful. There isn't
a single day that I don't wake up glad that
I've changed even this much, and happy
that my time being in the range my doctor
called morbidly obese taught me about the
true nature of people. I feel like it's easier
to see through a person's lies when they
tell you things that they wouldn't have
told you at a different weight.