a year
I don't like romance. I've never felt "romantic", if that is a feeling, and it doesn't interest me.
The reason this has come up is because it's my first wedding anniversary in a few days and I just don't really care. Daddy frowns at me and thinks I'm weird and I want to care because it seems important to him.
He has bought me something and I have nothing for him because I didn't consider that we would actually celebrate it. I even googled how to celebrate anniversaries, because I'm a dork, and none of the answers sounded fun. :(
I don't know for sure if my disinterest in romance is just part of my personality or if it's a reaction to my marriage. I know that I'm not the happiest I've ever been, but I attribute that mostly to being separated from my mom. My mom always made me feel beautiful and smart and loved and, as unfair and unrealistic as it may be, that's honestly what I expected from Daddy too. He can't give me that though so I've had to adjust from unconditional momlove to a sexual love that alternates between making you happy and making you feel like shit.
Anyway, I guess I'll bake Daddy cupcakes. It's not so romantic, I think, but they taste good.
The reason this has come up is because it's my first wedding anniversary in a few days and I just don't really care. Daddy frowns at me and thinks I'm weird and I want to care because it seems important to him.
He has bought me something and I have nothing for him because I didn't consider that we would actually celebrate it. I even googled how to celebrate anniversaries, because I'm a dork, and none of the answers sounded fun. :(
I don't know for sure if my disinterest in romance is just part of my personality or if it's a reaction to my marriage. I know that I'm not the happiest I've ever been, but I attribute that mostly to being separated from my mom. My mom always made me feel beautiful and smart and loved and, as unfair and unrealistic as it may be, that's honestly what I expected from Daddy too. He can't give me that though so I've had to adjust from unconditional momlove to a sexual love that alternates between making you happy and making you feel like shit.
Anyway, I guess I'll bake Daddy cupcakes. It's not so romantic, I think, but they taste good.