Mar 16, 2005 23:25
i dotn know anymore.
why do things have to be sooo incredibly complicated?
why do i miss it sooooooo much?
family and friends night was good....it felt AMAZING.......ahhhhh its just getting em all pumped for state. i really cant wait anymore......the nervousness has kind of gone away....
i am thinking abot other things.
like...how are you doing? you didnt look too good when i saw you the other day. you dont act liek youa re okay...and i know you arent. i know we never talk and you probaly dot care what i tihnk....but you are an amazing person. and i know you have things going for you....so get back on track and then go for it. i have faith in you....you can do it.
i love how when i get out there on the floor to preform for drill everything thing else leaves my mind....all the worries and pain goes away...adn the only thing i can think about is how amazing it feels to be out there.
i dotn know how i can screw up soo much.....and yet still have people who love me to death adn would do nething for me..adn still have the trust or my parents....and still have good things coming my way.
you just blow me away..i can be in a bad mood but somehow without even trying you can make me smile again. you dont even have to say anything special just a simple conversation with you makes my day!!!! im glad that i have you as a friend :)
its cold in my house...i dont feel like doing m homework...i feel like just sitting anfd typing out my thoughts. it feels good to sit and just type....not worrying about what i have to do or whats tomorrow.
im glad that my family was together tonite at family and friend night. i love how i have family that will actually support me and be there for me when i need them. instead of just acting like it and making up bull shit excuses.
i havent cried in such a long time...i tihnk its time to let it just come out and then start over again.
i wish you were still here with me. so you could tell me everything will be okay and that you still love me.
I WANT TO CUDDLE REALLLLLLL BAD