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aye aye aye. i need to rant, and this might seem selfish, but i need to get it all out, its kinda been building up. so now is as good a time as any:
1. JESUS CHRIST. its senior year, why is school suddenly hard? math: holy crap, i love mrs vega to death, but sheesh, this crap is hard! and spanish. thts just crazyness. and even forensics is getting kinda boring. i mean i love fleetwood to death too, but the random in depth convos about the pros and cons about a shotgun, i could do without just fine.
2. my parents- you all are gonna think im a horrible person, and i get that what im about to say is horrible, but its really how i feel at the moment: they need to be shot and thrown off a cliff. i really cant take puttin up with their BS ne more and im so ready to leave for college and get outta here. and i seriously hope they dont expect me to come back for breaks and stuff, cuz honestly, home is the last place i wanna be. sure i might get homesick, but im sure that feeling will pass. and i know brain can relate
3. Dan- i miss him almost as much as i love him. i knew him going to college was gonna be tough, but i was like ok i can deal with it. itll be fine. and yeah i can deal with it, but sometimes i just miss him so much and i know i sound all obsessed and whatnot, but i do. he's my best friend and i wanna call him every chance i get to tell him how my day was and to ask how his day was and to make sure he's doing ok and that school's going ok. but i cant, and it KILLS me cuz i really want to sometimes. he just makes me so happy and its like he makes life better, and i know most of you will think its silly/stupid to get that obsessed over a boy, i mean yeah, he is just a guy. but its how i am. and i get crazy obsessed and involved. plus, valentines day is in 2 days, but i dont get to see him for like another month. but the bright side to that is that when i do see him, itll be a mix of valentines day/ his birthday/ our year and a half anniversary, so thts good. but that doesnt change the fact that i still miss him so much.
4. WHERE THE HELL IS THE FRICKIN SNOW? ive almost given up all hope that its going to snow in DE ever again. well, it might snow, but not enough for any good snowball fights or snow days that last more than 1 day. those were the good 'ol days. the days where we got like 4 day weekends and early dissmissals and late days cuz of snow.
5. My uncle is getting sick, and its scaring the crap outta me. for those of you who know how close i am to my uncle, u might understand why this scares me so much. but im trying not to worry about it because theres already too much stress/drama/crap to deal with.
i need ice cream and happy feet and/or tristan and isolde (my current fav movie)
so thts my rant. if u didnt read, i understand, its long, pointless, and is totally self-centered, but its what LJ is for.
everyone do there snow dance/ rituals. maybe something will happen that will change my mind about numero 4.
NHS MEMBERS: AC AND TREVOR NEED ANY DONATIONS THEY CAN GET FOR THE VALENTINE'S FOR VETS. ANY CONTRIBUTION WILL BE APPRECIATED, AND PASS THE WORD ON TO YOUR FRIENDS. WEATHER PERMITTING, THERE WILL BE A WORK/PARTY TYPE THING AFTER SCHOOL TMRW. WE WILL BE MAKING THE CARDS/ GAMES/ BAGS/ ETC FOR THE TRIP AND COULD USE THE HELP.
i like being involved. it makes me feel useful and appreciated.
wow. this was a long one
1. JESUS CHRIST. its senior year, why is school suddenly hard? math: holy crap, i love mrs vega to death, but sheesh, this crap is hard! and spanish. thts just crazyness. and even forensics is getting kinda boring. i mean i love fleetwood to death too, but the random in depth convos about the pros and cons about a shotgun, i could do without just fine.
2. my parents- you all are gonna think im a horrible person, and i get that what im about to say is horrible, but its really how i feel at the moment: they need to be shot and thrown off a cliff. i really cant take puttin up with their BS ne more and im so ready to leave for college and get outta here. and i seriously hope they dont expect me to come back for breaks and stuff, cuz honestly, home is the last place i wanna be. sure i might get homesick, but im sure that feeling will pass. and i know brain can relate
3. Dan- i miss him almost as much as i love him. i knew him going to college was gonna be tough, but i was like ok i can deal with it. itll be fine. and yeah i can deal with it, but sometimes i just miss him so much and i know i sound all obsessed and whatnot, but i do. he's my best friend and i wanna call him every chance i get to tell him how my day was and to ask how his day was and to make sure he's doing ok and that school's going ok. but i cant, and it KILLS me cuz i really want to sometimes. he just makes me so happy and its like he makes life better, and i know most of you will think its silly/stupid to get that obsessed over a boy, i mean yeah, he is just a guy. but its how i am. and i get crazy obsessed and involved. plus, valentines day is in 2 days, but i dont get to see him for like another month. but the bright side to that is that when i do see him, itll be a mix of valentines day/ his birthday/ our year and a half anniversary, so thts good. but that doesnt change the fact that i still miss him so much.
4. WHERE THE HELL IS THE FRICKIN SNOW? ive almost given up all hope that its going to snow in DE ever again. well, it might snow, but not enough for any good snowball fights or snow days that last more than 1 day. those were the good 'ol days. the days where we got like 4 day weekends and early dissmissals and late days cuz of snow.
5. My uncle is getting sick, and its scaring the crap outta me. for those of you who know how close i am to my uncle, u might understand why this scares me so much. but im trying not to worry about it because theres already too much stress/drama/crap to deal with.
i need ice cream and happy feet and/or tristan and isolde (my current fav movie)
so thts my rant. if u didnt read, i understand, its long, pointless, and is totally self-centered, but its what LJ is for.
everyone do there snow dance/ rituals. maybe something will happen that will change my mind about numero 4.
NHS MEMBERS: AC AND TREVOR NEED ANY DONATIONS THEY CAN GET FOR THE VALENTINE'S FOR VETS. ANY CONTRIBUTION WILL BE APPRECIATED, AND PASS THE WORD ON TO YOUR FRIENDS. WEATHER PERMITTING, THERE WILL BE A WORK/PARTY TYPE THING AFTER SCHOOL TMRW. WE WILL BE MAKING THE CARDS/ GAMES/ BAGS/ ETC FOR THE TRIP AND COULD USE THE HELP.
i like being involved. it makes me feel useful and appreciated.
wow. this was a long one