the word "give up"
Salam every one :)
today I was thinking of what dear Yamapi said
The word “Give Up” doesn’t exist in my dictionary!
I might get knocked out but I will never give up. Either way, I think that I would do my best until I get knocked out. No matter how much I dance and sing and make comments I’m never satisfied and I’m always thinking that it’s no good. But if I end up losing those feelings then I’ll also stop wanting to do my best. It’s not good to be satisfied. Things that have satisfied me up until now? Well there are times where I eat and then I feel full though (laugh) That’s about it. I’m using this much energy and being this concentrated at such a young age, I probably won’t be living such a long life.
I want to be like that, I know that I have what it takes to do anything... sometimes I went through a lot of hardships in order to do what I wanted to do. but what makes me angry at myself, that these times were very rare... I get distracted off my goal a lot.. I stop trying very shortly after I start.. I never thought of it as giving up but it is really giving up... when i get distracted by just wasting time and go to have fun and forget all about what I wanted to do in first place is truely giving up ...
in order for you dear readers to understand what im talking about ill give an example...
losing my weight has been my goal since 10 years, Im always trying diets and working out, but everytime i stop after a week , few days and just get back to my old bad eating habits, even when i lost about 15 kilograms and was near my final goal, i retained them all in 2 years. im kind of person who likes having fun and just play around, Eating is one of my biggest pleasures, and i cook too so its kind of hard to stay fit. so I always end up leaving my diet for a meal i love.
anyway, now since im trying to change myself, ill put things clear. ill always put my goal in front of my eyes, and i wont lose to myself again, cuz i know i have everything it takes, and i wont do things half hearted anymore, ill put all my efforts inshallah.
I loved what he said about doing his best till he gets knocked out, this is scary for me so i think i wont be able to the same right now, changing takes time.. so one step at a time. but i know for sure that satisfy feeling is my enemy so i wont be satisfied again about myself, because when we feel satisfied we stop trying and we stop developing, i think Yamapi meant the same thing.