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God why does this kind of shit always happen? why do we have to fight so much? when we fight, i get so pissed and i cant get away from you fast enough and when i get away i cant stop thinking aobut u. y? i dont know what u want. i try to please u and i end up hurting u more. i just want your affection and attention and im trying so hard to make u happy but i dont think i can. i wish i could. if u could let me know i would appreciate it. constructive critisism would b nice. i guess i just dont understand your reasoning on you doing things. i dont get y. i just dont want u to go into relapse and turn out like my brother. i want u to make something of yourself. i dont want u to end up like him. he still lives here and hes 21 because of the choices he made. dont do that. please. i dont have to know everything it just seems like u do it a lot more than u used to and i feel like its all my fault. i feel like i started u on all of this again. i blame myself so thats y i get pissed when u do it. so please forgive me and if u read this tonight, please talk to me im here online waiting for u.