I'm back. . .sort of.
O.K. Here's the deal:
The big issue of why I was not on Livejournal had to do with my husband's job hunting. He needed the computer, because we've been unemployed for well over a month.
During that time, I've done some soul searching on my life. . .I've decided to open up a bit more.
The other two stresses in my life are that we lost the children about 18 months ago to Foster Care. I'm happy with where they are, but I know that the older two would rather be home.
I've been exploring my issues. I've discovered that my depression is a side effect of two things:
1. Physical and emotional abuse as a child.
2. Parents who did not know that I'm Asperger's.
I blame some of the abuse as a result of my father not understanding me. In all fairness 30 years ago, no one really knew about Asperger's Syndrome.
I'm a lot better with my life in general. Randy starts work again on Monday morning. I'm in therapy and at least one of the drugs has been doing it's job. I've taken up sewing. I've done a ninja costume and I'm working on a house dress for my mom and quilts for my two younger boys and their foster mom.
I've been quiet about my legal aspects out of a sense of embarassment and shame, but there is a light at the end of this expensive tunnel. And everything is starting to click back into place again.
Thanks for your patience with me.
I'm going to try to talk a lot more about my self and life and less meme's, at least in theory right now. . .
The big issue of why I was not on Livejournal had to do with my husband's job hunting. He needed the computer, because we've been unemployed for well over a month.
During that time, I've done some soul searching on my life. . .I've decided to open up a bit more.
The other two stresses in my life are that we lost the children about 18 months ago to Foster Care. I'm happy with where they are, but I know that the older two would rather be home.
I've been exploring my issues. I've discovered that my depression is a side effect of two things:
1. Physical and emotional abuse as a child.
2. Parents who did not know that I'm Asperger's.
I blame some of the abuse as a result of my father not understanding me. In all fairness 30 years ago, no one really knew about Asperger's Syndrome.
I'm a lot better with my life in general. Randy starts work again on Monday morning. I'm in therapy and at least one of the drugs has been doing it's job. I've taken up sewing. I've done a ninja costume and I'm working on a house dress for my mom and quilts for my two younger boys and their foster mom.
I've been quiet about my legal aspects out of a sense of embarassment and shame, but there is a light at the end of this expensive tunnel. And everything is starting to click back into place again.
Thanks for your patience with me.
I'm going to try to talk a lot more about my self and life and less meme's, at least in theory right now. . .