The female Aztec Warrior
A few months ago I wrote how I liked someone that I nicknamed Female Aztec warrior or something- bc she has strong indiginous features. I wasn't sure if I liked her bc she is from Mexico or because of the work that she does- or how about... she is just a really nice person? lol.
I have a crush on someone... well not her... but someone elese! One thing is for sure- I have spent too much time thinking about her. Tomorrow I am going to see her for our GLSEN Chapter meeting and I am a bit nervous. Ah. The fact that I am feeling nervous makes me think that I like her more than I like myself to believe or that I am making it up all inside my head.
yesterday I kept in touch with Ms. aztec warrior- she called me twice. First because I sent her a text message wednesday night telling her that I thought she was cute and then I was like... crap, she might get uncomfortable so I wrote her an e-mail and told her that I sent that to all my friends so I don't want her to misinterprete it. I think she is wicked cool which makes her cute. That's why I find people cute anyway! LOL. She calls me right away lol and is like ohhh I felt special there for a second, lol and I felt like an ass. I was like well take it as you wish, lol. I completely shut down, I didnt know what to respond. I wanted to say, I meant it- i think you are really cool and I think it's cool that we are going to be working together in this project and I can't wait to see you!!!! But I stopped myself, thought about it, and that's just over obssesive it disgusts me. lol.
Then I wrote another e-mail where I confessed that I lied, that I only sent to her and didn't want to make her uncomfortable. she calls me right away to tell me that she is excited about working together and we will make a great team blah blah blah... and I melted over the phone.
I am not really attracted to her in that sense... I just think she does cool stuff lol.
Anyway, in other news... yesterday all I could think about was sex. Even waiting for Shakira all I could think about was having sex. lol. So fucked up. I am not sure what to do- hopefully like most crushes they come quickly and disappear just the same.... !!!!
-mina
I have a crush on someone... well not her... but someone elese! One thing is for sure- I have spent too much time thinking about her. Tomorrow I am going to see her for our GLSEN Chapter meeting and I am a bit nervous. Ah. The fact that I am feeling nervous makes me think that I like her more than I like myself to believe or that I am making it up all inside my head.
yesterday I kept in touch with Ms. aztec warrior- she called me twice. First because I sent her a text message wednesday night telling her that I thought she was cute and then I was like... crap, she might get uncomfortable so I wrote her an e-mail and told her that I sent that to all my friends so I don't want her to misinterprete it. I think she is wicked cool which makes her cute. That's why I find people cute anyway! LOL. She calls me right away lol and is like ohhh I felt special there for a second, lol and I felt like an ass. I was like well take it as you wish, lol. I completely shut down, I didnt know what to respond. I wanted to say, I meant it- i think you are really cool and I think it's cool that we are going to be working together in this project and I can't wait to see you!!!! But I stopped myself, thought about it, and that's just over obssesive it disgusts me. lol.
Then I wrote another e-mail where I confessed that I lied, that I only sent to her and didn't want to make her uncomfortable. she calls me right away to tell me that she is excited about working together and we will make a great team blah blah blah... and I melted over the phone.
I am not really attracted to her in that sense... I just think she does cool stuff lol.
Anyway, in other news... yesterday all I could think about was sex. Even waiting for Shakira all I could think about was having sex. lol. So fucked up. I am not sure what to do- hopefully like most crushes they come quickly and disappear just the same.... !!!!
-mina