I let it all out...
Last night I was just sitting on my bed and started crying. I took out Betheneys pictures and Iwas looking at them and I had knoticed that something was written on the back of one, apparently she wront me a note on it. It said...TO my love, my life, and my bestfriend I love you spiderman (thats what she use to call me) love, babyboo. As soon as I read that I let it all out. I couldent stop the tears...it had been a really long time since i cried that hard. I think the last time i cried that hard...was at my grandmothers Funeral. Life is short. I was going to do it last night...I was going to put myself out of my own misery but I couldent. I am trying so hard to get life back to where its suppose to be and I dont know wheather to move on with betheney or with out her. But Umm I told peachee that if i dont hear from her at the end of Sunday...then its over. So God if you hear me or are reading (hahaha) she has till Sunday...and if shes not here then I am going to try to move on. But it will take a long time. shit.