I missed you! I'd wondered where you went. But it's good to hear from you!
Wow! That's so amazing! I'm so glad you got the highest grade out of everyone. That's verily fantastical. Just goes to show how awesome you are.
As far as being pushed into something I didn't want to do. At first I came up with no answer. After all, I'm told I'm pretty mellow (more than one person has said I'm the most mellow person they know) so I tend to go with the flow easily. Someone suggests I do something and I agree.
But then I was thinking and I have had times when I would force myself to do something I didn't want.
The one that stands out the most in my mind is when I took Drama and Speech classes in high school. Let it be known that I do not like talking in front of people. More people, the worse. And let it also be known that I didn't really talk in high school. I'm serious on this. In one class we got a new student and a few weeks in (keep in mind that her seat was next to mine) she asked if I could even talk. I of course told her I could but then later thought I should've shook his head in a negative. Oh well. And I still don't talk much, unless I'm comfortable with you or you get me on the right subject. Even people at work (been working there for over two years now) are amazed when I talk.
So, safe to say, I don't like talking in front of people.
Which was why I took classes where I'd have to talk in front of people.
In order to help get over my fear, of course. And it helped some. But I can put up a good act. After this one speech, when I was done I walked around the podium (we were able to use it) and my friend told me that it was amazing to watch as she was sitting on the side of the class and could tell that from waist up, I looked cool and confident, but then my knees were shaking so much that she could see it. And it's true. Sat back down at my desk my knees were still shaking and now that I could, as were my hands.
Other than that, I passed my classes good. And during the debate part of class everyone was surprised (teacher as well) at how cut-throat I was in my cross.
And then something else I never want to do is Christmas Bingo. Every year my dad's side of the family (who I don't really mesh with. Because well, they're all rather shallow and honest to God, I've had a half-hour conversation with them - kids and grown-ups alike, about what it was like to read.) But Christmas Bingo is if you get a bingo, get a present. And you never know what you're gonna get. It's always fun when a guy gets feathery panties (gifts are split into kids and grown-ups). Then it's Travel Bingo where for a certain amount of time you play and get a bingo take someone's gift. That way you can get a chance to get the gifts you wanted. Either way, there's hardly ever any gifts I want. Usually I sit in the other room and read. Last year a friend and I went and saw Sherlock Holmes in theaters.
Missed you too, babe. (: God, sometimes real life can be a real pain, y/y? And THANK YOU. ♥♥♥ I don't want to let accomplishments get to my head until I turn into something resembling Rachel Berry, but sometimes I have to let myself bask in my victories... and laugh at my own fails which are more than plentiful. :P
I remember you telling me about that new student asking you if you could talk at all! And I can definitely relate, although I'm beginning to make some acquaintances (or friends, I suppose?). I think you were courageous and strong to force yourself into those classes. As a fellow "OMG PUBLIC SPEAKING DNW"-person, I feel for ya. And I've also got to read a small anecdote for an arts program I'm auditioning for this Sunday. e____e I'm using past experiences as an example and not letting myself think about it too much, lest I psyche myself out to the point of craziness. Hahaha.
Kudos to you for being an awesome student in debate! I don't think I could do it very well. I'm very wishy-washy with my opinions. xD (And don't you just love showing 'em all, the looks on people's faces when you do something unexpected?)
Christ... mas... bingo? Wow, it doesn't even sound fun. And your father's side of your family doesn't sound very lovely at all. But the concept of the game sounds pretty... well, strange. But still sort of cool.
Indeed, real life can a real pain sometimes. I doubt you'll end up resembling Rachel Berry. And I usually laugh at my fails. That way you're not as down about them.
Public speaking is so frightening. I'm still scared of it, luckily I don't have to do it too much. Though this one time my boss said I was going to be leading a meeting in our department. I get along well with my department but I was so scared of doing that. Luckily she hadn't given me the information I was going to have give out so all I did was pass out the pencils. But I hope your small anecdote goes over well. One of my friends once said that before going to Speech I should go to the bathroom and psych myself up in the mirror by telling myself I was confident and would do well. I scoffed at them. I knew it wouldn't work.
Yeah, we had our sides of the debate assigned to us. But I am very wishy-washy as well. The class would vote to say who's debate was better - who won and when it was the other teams up I basically sided with the last people who were talking. I felt so awful. (And I do love their surprised faces.)
Yeah, Christmas Bingo. It's not fun. I've never liked it. And I usually don't play. Once in a while my mom makes me and the only reason why she makes me is because they make her. Sometimes I'll be in the other room and they'll have a card for me and play for me and they'll make me come in and open the presents when my card gets a bingo. Though I tell them not to do that. (Worst is that growing up this bunch of people and my family would vacation somewhere together for a week at a time because my grandparents have timeshare.)
Wow! That's so amazing! I'm so glad you got the highest grade out of everyone. That's verily fantastical. Just goes to show how awesome you are.
As far as being pushed into something I didn't want to do. At first I came up with no answer. After all, I'm told I'm pretty mellow (more than one person has said I'm the most mellow person they know) so I tend to go with the flow easily. Someone suggests I do something and I agree.
But then I was thinking and I have had times when I would force myself to do something I didn't want.
The one that stands out the most in my mind is when I took Drama and Speech classes in high school. Let it be known that I do not like talking in front of people. More people, the worse. And let it also be known that I didn't really talk in high school. I'm serious on this. In one class we got a new student and a few weeks in (keep in mind that her seat was next to mine) she asked if I could even talk. I of course told her I could but then later thought I should've shook his head in a negative. Oh well. And I still don't talk much, unless I'm comfortable with you or you get me on the right subject. Even people at work (been working there for over two years now) are amazed when I talk.
So, safe to say, I don't like talking in front of people.
Which was why I took classes where I'd have to talk in front of people.
In order to help get over my fear, of course. And it helped some. But I can put up a good act. After this one speech, when I was done I walked around the podium (we were able to use it) and my friend told me that it was amazing to watch as she was sitting on the side of the class and could tell that from waist up, I looked cool and confident, but then my knees were shaking so much that she could see it. And it's true. Sat back down at my desk my knees were still shaking and now that I could, as were my hands.
Other than that, I passed my classes good. And during the debate part of class everyone was surprised (teacher as well) at how cut-throat I was in my cross.
And then something else I never want to do is Christmas Bingo. Every year my dad's side of the family (who I don't really mesh with. Because well, they're all rather shallow and honest to God, I've had a half-hour conversation with them - kids and grown-ups alike, about what it was like to read.) But Christmas Bingo is if you get a bingo, get a present. And you never know what you're gonna get. It's always fun when a guy gets feathery panties (gifts are split into kids and grown-ups). Then it's Travel Bingo where for a certain amount of time you play and get a bingo take someone's gift. That way you can get a chance to get the gifts you wanted. Either way, there's hardly ever any gifts I want. Usually I sit in the other room and read. Last year a friend and I went and saw Sherlock Holmes in theaters.
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And THANK YOU. ♥♥♥ I don't want to let accomplishments get to my head until I turn into something resembling Rachel Berry, but sometimes I have to let myself bask in my victories... and laugh at my own fails which are more than plentiful. :P
I remember you telling me about that new student asking you if you could talk at all! And I can definitely relate, although I'm beginning to make some acquaintances (or friends, I suppose?). I think you were courageous and strong to force yourself into those classes. As a fellow "OMG PUBLIC SPEAKING DNW"-person, I feel for ya. And I've also got to read a small anecdote for an arts program I'm auditioning for this Sunday. e____e I'm using past experiences as an example and not letting myself think about it too much, lest I psyche myself out to the point of craziness. Hahaha.
Kudos to you for being an awesome student in debate! I don't think I could do it very well. I'm very wishy-washy with my opinions. xD (And don't you just love showing 'em all, the looks on people's faces when you do something unexpected?)
Christ... mas... bingo? Wow, it doesn't even sound fun. And your father's side of your family doesn't sound very lovely at all. But the concept of the game sounds pretty... well, strange. But still sort of cool.
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I doubt you'll end up resembling Rachel Berry. And I usually laugh at my fails. That way you're not as down about them.
Public speaking is so frightening. I'm still scared of it, luckily I don't have to do it too much. Though this one time my boss said I was going to be leading a meeting in our department. I get along well with my department but I was so scared of doing that. Luckily she hadn't given me the information I was going to have give out so all I did was pass out the pencils. But I hope your small anecdote goes over well. One of my friends once said that before going to Speech I should go to the bathroom and psych myself up in the mirror by telling myself I was confident and would do well. I scoffed at them. I knew it wouldn't work.
Yeah, we had our sides of the debate assigned to us. But I am very wishy-washy as well. The class would vote to say who's debate was better - who won and when it was the other teams up I basically sided with the last people who were talking. I felt so awful. (And I do love their surprised faces.)
Yeah, Christmas Bingo. It's not fun. I've never liked it. And I usually don't play. Once in a while my mom makes me and the only reason why she makes me is because they make her. Sometimes I'll be in the other room and they'll have a card for me and play for me and they'll make me come in and open the presents when my card gets a bingo. Though I tell them not to do that. (Worst is that growing up this bunch of people and my family would vacation somewhere together for a week at a time because my grandparents have timeshare.)
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