Here you go
I'm tired of saying the same shit over and over again in my head. I don't act upon the things I tell myself to do. I fuck up every time. Every chance I get..I fuck it up. I can't tell if I need to stop having relationships, or if I just need to find the right one who will eccept the way I am. I know that Right now I am going to stop trying with people for a while..and during that time I will try to chill..relax, and find myself. I have a feeling that if I work on the problem I have of Freakin out..that I will have a better chance of keeping a relationship for over a month.. I go on and on about stupid shit. I am too emotional..take things too seriously. I can't help but think that people have to care. And when They don't..thats about the time I freak..I get annoying..And I see it all happening..Some times I am fine. I chill..and try not to give a damn. But when I think..or care about something I shouldn't..I end up saying or doing something wrong. Then No one wants me around..I end up being alone..not able to comfort myself, and with no friends to comfort me.. Thats when I can't sleep. Laying there knowing I fucked it up again. I won't hurt myself. Well not on the out side .. I Just smoke, smoke, and smoke some more!!
Alright Later.
Alright Later.