Do we really have a happy ending???
I should be sleeping right now, I need to be sleeping right now. But so many things are bothering me right now...not a lot just one complicated situation. I got off the phone with jasmine(yes i know we both have the same name, it took a while for me to get used to it--i think its so funny though) about an hour ago or so i dunno wasn't really keeping track. But just the way everything is not the same anymore kills me. So many people get inbetween our relationship it's so hard to have one, I don't even know if I could call what we had a relationship. There's so much drama between us, so many people don't want us together I hate it. They should just let us be, let US have the relationship that we want, let US live our lives the way WE want them to. But NO they can't let us be. So much ignorance that people have inside of them, if they're not happy they can't see anyone else happy either. UGH! Sometimes I just wish things weren't the way they actually are, too much drama to deal with.
I don't care what anyone says I will not live a lie. If I love someone I will shout it out to the world, why lie about who I'm with? Why lie about who I hate? Why lie about who I am or who I want to be? Exactly, we shouldn't. So many people will not be themselves because of the fear of what others might say or do? Who gives a fuck??? Just do it, act on your instincts, believe me things will turn out better than you thought.
Why do things have to happen the way they do? Shit ain't fair sometimes. I know some of this might not make sense, but I'm just writing out of anger and pain. And it is 2 in the morning. I'm sorry if it's too long, but anyways you dont have to read it, its your choice. I just needed to let some of my feelings out and the best way I can do it is in words. I think I'm going to try to go to sleep now. GOODNITE
Only I can feel MY pain, only I can feel MY joy, only I can feel MY sorrow, only I can feel MY happiness, only I can feel my regrets, only I can feel MY heartache, only I can feel MY pride...ONLY I CAN LIVE MY LIFE.