MOVING ON... SOMETHING I SHOULD HAVE DONE 5 YEARS AGO!
This journal entry is dedicated to someone who used to be very close to me and now well, you decide............
A long time ago you were the only thing in my life. You were my best friend, my lover, my all. But then over time YOU started to FUCK UP. YOU hurt me, YOU hit me, YOU cheated on me (need I remind you EIGHT times), YOU hid me, YOU were ashamed of me, and then YOU FUCK ME OVER , for the last time. How many FUCKING TIMES DID I DO THOSE THINGS TO YOU???????
How could I have possible ruined you life?? I think most people would beg to differ!!!!! Of course i blame myself for the stupity of ever trusting you after the first time you FUCKED someone else but. We all make mistakes, you definitally fall in the catergory. For 3 years I let you run my life and hurt me over and over again. All I wanted was for you love me. Love me the way my heart loved you, and always had. What did I ever do that was so wrong. I looked back on our very fucked up relationship and think...." What the hell were you doing Christina?" She was nothing you could have ever deserved.... even if I was scum. You know I never expected any money from you at any point. You aren't responsible for your own actions and you never have been. You are fucked up and that will never change. I expect no more than that from you. Why ..... why would I think that? It doesn't in any way affect you. I forgot I lived in that apartment all by myself. B ut it's okay Karma will come back and bite you in the ass. I'll pay off OUR debt and then every part of our past will be demolished out of my head FOREVER!!!! As far as me "falling off the face of the earth and dieing....." I'm afraid you'll have to live in hell for a little longer because I'm NOT going any where..... .(AND I'M SORRY I LEFT YOU FOR THE BEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME....I'M JUST BETTER... AND SHE SAW IT!!!) Notice that all of our "old" friends are now only my friends because none of them like you.... most of them never have! So if any one needs to change any thing about their life.... I would think that it would be you. The only good thing that I ever got out of you was your family.... and that's the only thing about this entry and our past that I may some day regret. Because they were the world to me.... Maybe I should have told them things I left out, but I NEVER wanted to hurt them. None of them deserve that. As far as your little girlfriend goes..... I hope yall are happy together in your sreiously FUCKED UP relationship. Yall are really perfect for each other...... So live in your misery and be content in your denial for the rest of your life, because you see Brandi I'm very happy where I am and I had the balls to never be fake to you. And your stupid little words and threats won't...... CAN"T hurt me any more........ FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"Forgotten"
Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah
I'm giving up on everything
Because you messed me up
Don't know how much you
Screwed it up
You never listened
That's just too bad
Because I'm moving on
I won't forget
You were the one that was wrong
I know I need to step up and be strong
Don't patronize me
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
[Chorus]
Have you forgotten
Everything that I wanted
Do you forget it now
You never got It
Do you get it now
Yea yea yea yea yea
Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah
Gotta get away
There's no point in thinking about yesterday
It's too late now
It won't ever be the same
We're so different now
Yea yea yea yea yea
A long time ago you were the only thing in my life. You were my best friend, my lover, my all. But then over time YOU started to FUCK UP. YOU hurt me, YOU hit me, YOU cheated on me (need I remind you EIGHT times), YOU hid me, YOU were ashamed of me, and then YOU FUCK ME OVER , for the last time. How many FUCKING TIMES DID I DO THOSE THINGS TO YOU???????
How could I have possible ruined you life?? I think most people would beg to differ!!!!! Of course i blame myself for the stupity of ever trusting you after the first time you FUCKED someone else but. We all make mistakes, you definitally fall in the catergory. For 3 years I let you run my life and hurt me over and over again. All I wanted was for you love me. Love me the way my heart loved you, and always had. What did I ever do that was so wrong. I looked back on our very fucked up relationship and think...." What the hell were you doing Christina?" She was nothing you could have ever deserved.... even if I was scum. You know I never expected any money from you at any point. You aren't responsible for your own actions and you never have been. You are fucked up and that will never change. I expect no more than that from you. Why ..... why would I think that? It doesn't in any way affect you. I forgot I lived in that apartment all by myself. B ut it's okay Karma will come back and bite you in the ass. I'll pay off OUR debt and then every part of our past will be demolished out of my head FOREVER!!!! As far as me "falling off the face of the earth and dieing....." I'm afraid you'll have to live in hell for a little longer because I'm NOT going any where..... .(AND I'M SORRY I LEFT YOU FOR THE BEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME....I'M JUST BETTER... AND SHE SAW IT!!!) Notice that all of our "old" friends are now only my friends because none of them like you.... most of them never have! So if any one needs to change any thing about their life.... I would think that it would be you. The only good thing that I ever got out of you was your family.... and that's the only thing about this entry and our past that I may some day regret. Because they were the world to me.... Maybe I should have told them things I left out, but I NEVER wanted to hurt them. None of them deserve that. As far as your little girlfriend goes..... I hope yall are happy together in your sreiously FUCKED UP relationship. Yall are really perfect for each other...... So live in your misery and be content in your denial for the rest of your life, because you see Brandi I'm very happy where I am and I had the balls to never be fake to you. And your stupid little words and threats won't...... CAN"T hurt me any more........ FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"Forgotten"
Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah
I'm giving up on everything
Because you messed me up
Don't know how much you
Screwed it up
You never listened
That's just too bad
Because I'm moving on
I won't forget
You were the one that was wrong
I know I need to step up and be strong
Don't patronize me
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
[Chorus]
Have you forgotten
Everything that I wanted
Do you forget it now
You never got It
Do you get it now
Yea yea yea yea yea
Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah
Gotta get away
There's no point in thinking about yesterday
It's too late now
It won't ever be the same
We're so different now
Yea yea yea yea yea