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[lezbean19]

Time seeems to pass so fast and by the you have a chance to blink everything just seems so wrong. I 've spent the past 3 years of my life just jumping around frome place to place house to house.... nothing really feels like home. I try to make my self at home as much as possible but sometimes it's just too hard. The evets of the past month or so have just pushed my to my maximum elasticity. Sometimes I feel like I can't breathe, and the walls are going to crash down on me any minute. I don't feel completely productive no matter what I accomplish that day. I always feel like there is more I should have done. Granted I do work at night which makes it kinda hard to get up early. but that's no excuse. All I want is happiness and why that wish is so hard is beyoond me. I did however have an absolutely wonderful weekend. Courtney and I stayed up for.... I don't even know how long playing monopoly. and it was so nice. Friday I went with my mom and celina and my sisters along with Courtney and Dana Wheaton. I had so much fun it wasn't the fact that it was wresling but the people I was surrounded by. I laughed so hard!!!! I really miss my family. I just keep waiting for Nov. 1st to hit and hopefully all that will change. Saturday we all went to a haunted house and we had alot of fun! Granted I ate my shit because Hannah was acting like and idiot but it was really funny afterwards. I thought Liz was going to kill one of the "scary" guys by the time the night was over with. There was this clown that had me corned and Liz pulled him off me and got in his face....don't like clowns very much! and she knew that but over all we had fun. After that we went and ate at IHOP. and then we went to Rainbow. I had fun,I was totally under dressed. But I really did have a good time. Lacy and Erica showed up and it was even more fun! My back is really sore though from everyone dancing on me while I was up against the wall, It's a litle bruised. Liz and I spent the night at Erica's.... fun night that's all I'll say! Tonight was my first night back at work after my "vacation" . Jeff Scott and I were in the office talking and I told him about my weekend and I elaborated to say that I think some of my unhappiness is at work and I told him that it was my pay and the atmosphere and I told him that I was going to look for another job this week. As I was talking about Jeff Quirk and my reasonings.... he walks through the door and wants to know what we are talking about. I told him my weekend and I told him that I 'd like to have a meeting with him next week. He had Ashton(his daughter) with him so I really didn't want to go into detail but of course he insisted. I told him my problems and he gave MY RAISE ON THE SPOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! definitally something worth celebrating for.( thank you for the advice mommy and I'll call you and give you the details tomorrow, all I could hear in my head were your words to me the other day. I love you, You always know what to say!) So I went from 6.75 an hour to 8.10 an hour very big difference, at least to me! So hopefully my life will stay on this track. Thanks to every one who has kept me sane and has given me hope for a better tomorrow. I love you all!!!!!!

Nina, Patina, Tostina, Bean , Nacho, Toast. Or simply Christina. (which ever one I might be to your or for my mommy....all of them!lol)