Agony in Ecstasy
Dream Theater - The Mirror
Temptation-
Why won't you leave me alone?
Lurking Every Corner, everywhere I go
Temptation - The temptation to stay with Katie . . . the time we spent, the fun we had. It was fun, but it also started to get bad. Fights on the phone, sadness on the phone almost constantly. I love her but it seems like a dead end. We have a long distance between us and now I don't even have a computer at home so we get a few hours a night to talk and most of them ended up bad. . . .
Self Control-
Don't turn your back on me now
When I need you the most
Constant pressure tests my will
My will or my won't
My Self Control escapes from me still...
Self Control - I could just be keep my happy act going and pretend like it's all ok while having a constant battle with myself, but that would be wrong. I could just simply take Katie back like I know she wants but then I'd hate myself for being weak. Friends have told me to not be weak, and do what I feel. I tell all of my friends this also when they go through a tough time, and now I feel weak for not being able to follow it.
Hypocrite-
How could you be so cruel
and expect my faith in return?
Hypocrite - Yes . . . I said things to Katie that don't apply anymore; "I'll never break up with you . . ." : "We'll get married." : "I'll do anything for you." But I also believe that we moved too fast in the first place, we alredy thought that we were married - we weren't. And though now those things don't apply one thing still does, I do still love her. But it just can't work out. I don't expect you ever to forgive me or believe anything I say anymore . . . I am faithless.
Resistance-
Is not as hard as it seems
When you close the door?
Resistence - Katie begs me, her friends beg me to get back with her, but I can't. Closing the door is the best way, but that is hard and I need my self control to help me. Not to shut the door on her as a friend but to not let the relationship back in. Too much pain of distance and time. Too much . . .
[Sample is Meryl Streep from the film "Falling In Love".]
"What're you doing?
What're you doing?"
[Sample is Jeremy Irons from the film "Damage".]
"That I haven't behaved as I should"
[Sample is Mary Beth Hurt from the film "Light Sleeper".]
"Everything you need is around you. The only danger is inside you."
[Sample is Jeremy Irons from the film "Damage".]
"I thought you could control life, but it's not like that. There are things you can't control."
You say that I changed over the past few months, and I may have. You always got sad that I changed and I can't make you happy I know. Katie please don't hurt yourself and don't be mad at yourself the danger is inside of you. The distance and time and ages and parents and gas and the list goes on were all that made my decision, not you directly.
Let's stare the problem right in the eye
It's plagued me from coast to coast
Racing the clock to please everyone
All but the one who matters the most
Reflections of reality
are slowly coming into view
How in the hell could you possibly forgive me?
After all the hell I put you through
I tried to make you happy with every waking moment. Through distance and time I disregarded my own feelings to suit yours. And now that I have thought it over and the relity has sunk in I know that it was unhealthy for us to be together, your parents knew it, your aunt, my grandparents. But I didn't think about it. ANd now that I have hurt you you can't forgive me . . . I'm damned.
It's time for me to deal
Becoming all too real
living in fear-
Why'd I betray my friend?
Lying until the end
Living life so pretend
It's time to make my amends
Now I have to live with my choices and try to go on with it, try to survive and hope you do too.
But now that we're no longer together . . .
I'll never hurt you again
Temptation-
Why won't you leave me alone?
Lurking Every Corner, everywhere I go
Temptation - The temptation to stay with Katie . . . the time we spent, the fun we had. It was fun, but it also started to get bad. Fights on the phone, sadness on the phone almost constantly. I love her but it seems like a dead end. We have a long distance between us and now I don't even have a computer at home so we get a few hours a night to talk and most of them ended up bad. . . .
Self Control-
Don't turn your back on me now
When I need you the most
Constant pressure tests my will
My will or my won't
My Self Control escapes from me still...
Self Control - I could just be keep my happy act going and pretend like it's all ok while having a constant battle with myself, but that would be wrong. I could just simply take Katie back like I know she wants but then I'd hate myself for being weak. Friends have told me to not be weak, and do what I feel. I tell all of my friends this also when they go through a tough time, and now I feel weak for not being able to follow it.
Hypocrite-
How could you be so cruel
and expect my faith in return?
Hypocrite - Yes . . . I said things to Katie that don't apply anymore; "I'll never break up with you . . ." : "We'll get married." : "I'll do anything for you." But I also believe that we moved too fast in the first place, we alredy thought that we were married - we weren't. And though now those things don't apply one thing still does, I do still love her. But it just can't work out. I don't expect you ever to forgive me or believe anything I say anymore . . . I am faithless.
Resistance-
Is not as hard as it seems
When you close the door?
Resistence - Katie begs me, her friends beg me to get back with her, but I can't. Closing the door is the best way, but that is hard and I need my self control to help me. Not to shut the door on her as a friend but to not let the relationship back in. Too much pain of distance and time. Too much . . .
[Sample is Meryl Streep from the film "Falling In Love".]
"What're you doing?
What're you doing?"
[Sample is Jeremy Irons from the film "Damage".]
"That I haven't behaved as I should"
[Sample is Mary Beth Hurt from the film "Light Sleeper".]
"Everything you need is around you. The only danger is inside you."
[Sample is Jeremy Irons from the film "Damage".]
"I thought you could control life, but it's not like that. There are things you can't control."
You say that I changed over the past few months, and I may have. You always got sad that I changed and I can't make you happy I know. Katie please don't hurt yourself and don't be mad at yourself the danger is inside of you. The distance and time and ages and parents and gas and the list goes on were all that made my decision, not you directly.
Let's stare the problem right in the eye
It's plagued me from coast to coast
Racing the clock to please everyone
All but the one who matters the most
Reflections of reality
are slowly coming into view
How in the hell could you possibly forgive me?
After all the hell I put you through
I tried to make you happy with every waking moment. Through distance and time I disregarded my own feelings to suit yours. And now that I have thought it over and the relity has sunk in I know that it was unhealthy for us to be together, your parents knew it, your aunt, my grandparents. But I didn't think about it. ANd now that I have hurt you you can't forgive me . . . I'm damned.
It's time for me to deal
Becoming all too real
living in fear-
Why'd I betray my friend?
Lying until the end
Living life so pretend
It's time to make my amends
Now I have to live with my choices and try to go on with it, try to survive and hope you do too.
But now that we're no longer together . . .
I'll never hurt you again