Enough of this new beginning stuff . . . ^^;;
Dear Jay-Le,
Last night as a spur of the moment idea I asked Katie if I could come spend the New Years with her, unfortunately I had no idea what could or would happen. I innocently wanted to be with Katie, but it'd turn into more than that. It'd turn into a mental fight.
"Should I forget the way I feel?"
The night started off normal, I got there and she wanted to run to the gas station for some aspirin. We sat there for about an hour before she wanted to go to the little party. Little did I know what I was getting myself into. You see, Jay-Le, Katie's ex, Austin, was there and this was 'their night,' unfortunately I was there. I can understand the ex relationship and handle the old feelings - as long as they're that, old.
"God he knows how long I've tried."
I don't mean to sound selfish as much and I try to sound jealous but I'm glad I was there or I fear something might have happened which would ruin everything for me. Austin, to me, seems to be the kind of guy who would throw a tantrum if he doesn't get what he wants, which is what he did. I would have been up to playing his game and taking part in this soap opera but unfortunately my thirst for drama was quenched earlier with Matt, I'll get to him later. Early in the night Austin took me into the restroom to have a little talk, and indeed little it was. The only important thing which was said is I respected the fact him and Katie were once a couple, too bad for him he ended it there and did let me finish my thoughts. Although I did indeed respect that, they're not a couple anymore and him being there wasn't going to stop me. Not 10 minutes after that he said to me in the crowd, "So much for respect." Hm. It's not my fault Katie was hugging me, go play your game.
"Feel there is no reason to cry."
I wanted to give Austin a chance to possibly be friends, or at the very least aquaintences on good terms. But he had to make is a quarrel. I truly felt like the night wouldn't be over until I had a black eye, missing teeth and a broken leg. I swear he was going around telling all his lackeys to kick my ass, probably was. Wouldn't matter to me in the least, if he wants to do that it's his call. I'd much rather talk it out, but as I said earlier my head was stressed. I was right in my thinking, leaving without a black eye wasn't possible. Katie gave me two in fact, she decided I needed some eye liner and I let her. Hey I like it! ^^
"I live my life in fortune dreams forever."
I did enjoy myself, although out of everyone there I only made one new friend. His name was John I believe, seemed like a pretty cool guy and also seemed like he wasn't much friends with Austin's group which is probably why I got along with him so well. Other than him I only knew Bree, who wasn't around much. Oh there was Brittany too but we won't talk about that crazy little girl. Whether it was sitting in the car, or lying on the floor with as long as I was with Katie the night was fantastic. I had fun with her, even though I was under strict supervision of Austin I did not care in the least. Nothing was going to stop me from being with Katie. Nothing can, nothing will, nothing did. I love her too much to let a child get in our way of being happy, she's too important, too perfect to not give all of my attention and to be afraid of Austin and his lackeys. If the time came for them to kick my ass I would gladly have died fighting for her, and only her. Austin, I want to say this to you, I'm not afraid of you and I'm not going to be intimidated. In the words of some random person, "You think you hard? You nothin boy!" Sorry, thug talk. xD
I'll get to Matt tomorrow. Ciao Jay-Le!
Last night as a spur of the moment idea I asked Katie if I could come spend the New Years with her, unfortunately I had no idea what could or would happen. I innocently wanted to be with Katie, but it'd turn into more than that. It'd turn into a mental fight.
"Should I forget the way I feel?"
The night started off normal, I got there and she wanted to run to the gas station for some aspirin. We sat there for about an hour before she wanted to go to the little party. Little did I know what I was getting myself into. You see, Jay-Le, Katie's ex, Austin, was there and this was 'their night,' unfortunately I was there. I can understand the ex relationship and handle the old feelings - as long as they're that, old.
"God he knows how long I've tried."
I don't mean to sound selfish as much and I try to sound jealous but I'm glad I was there or I fear something might have happened which would ruin everything for me. Austin, to me, seems to be the kind of guy who would throw a tantrum if he doesn't get what he wants, which is what he did. I would have been up to playing his game and taking part in this soap opera but unfortunately my thirst for drama was quenched earlier with Matt, I'll get to him later. Early in the night Austin took me into the restroom to have a little talk, and indeed little it was. The only important thing which was said is I respected the fact him and Katie were once a couple, too bad for him he ended it there and did let me finish my thoughts. Although I did indeed respect that, they're not a couple anymore and him being there wasn't going to stop me. Not 10 minutes after that he said to me in the crowd, "So much for respect." Hm. It's not my fault Katie was hugging me, go play your game.
"Feel there is no reason to cry."
I wanted to give Austin a chance to possibly be friends, or at the very least aquaintences on good terms. But he had to make is a quarrel. I truly felt like the night wouldn't be over until I had a black eye, missing teeth and a broken leg. I swear he was going around telling all his lackeys to kick my ass, probably was. Wouldn't matter to me in the least, if he wants to do that it's his call. I'd much rather talk it out, but as I said earlier my head was stressed. I was right in my thinking, leaving without a black eye wasn't possible. Katie gave me two in fact, she decided I needed some eye liner and I let her. Hey I like it! ^^
"I live my life in fortune dreams forever."
I did enjoy myself, although out of everyone there I only made one new friend. His name was John I believe, seemed like a pretty cool guy and also seemed like he wasn't much friends with Austin's group which is probably why I got along with him so well. Other than him I only knew Bree, who wasn't around much. Oh there was Brittany too but we won't talk about that crazy little girl. Whether it was sitting in the car, or lying on the floor with as long as I was with Katie the night was fantastic. I had fun with her, even though I was under strict supervision of Austin I did not care in the least. Nothing was going to stop me from being with Katie. Nothing can, nothing will, nothing did. I love her too much to let a child get in our way of being happy, she's too important, too perfect to not give all of my attention and to be afraid of Austin and his lackeys. If the time came for them to kick my ass I would gladly have died fighting for her, and only her. Austin, I want to say this to you, I'm not afraid of you and I'm not going to be intimidated. In the words of some random person, "You think you hard? You nothin boy!" Sorry, thug talk. xD
I'll get to Matt tomorrow. Ciao Jay-Le!