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so anyways last night i had a really bad night me and jut got into a fight and ended up breaking up and i broke up with her so i was all okay with it or so i thought i was until i was laying down in bed and couldnt get her off my mind so i called her house and finally she picked up and we talked and got back together and yeah but all day i had this feeling that she just said that so i would leave her alone for the night and i still think that she like doesnt want to be with me and that shes just pretending that she does.... yeah and then so i called her after school and that feeling went away and then we got off the phone and i got a ride home and i was stuck outside but then i got in and i had to go through the basement and it was all scary so i called her while i was going through and she was a real cunt she was like oh well thats great but jesus leyna my phone is fucking dieing ( when i knew it wasnt because it beeps when its going to die but it wasnt beeping) blah blah blah... so said jesus im fucking sorry and hung up.... i dont know ive been really depressed all day.... all i want is a ciggerate but ive been so good about not smokeing so thats out of the question.... i wish i had enough time to paint but i have to go get ready for soccer now....so bye... ill update again later