make the bad man stop. long entry
I havent writtten in here for awhile.
Life is ok. I've been feeling kind of low lately. I never see anyone anymore, just Devin and my roomate Jamie, and sometimes Laura and Erin. I need to get out. I miss a lot of people....but nobody calls me that used to call me. You guys gotta stop not being my friend. Perhaps I should listen to my own advice and call some people myself. I havent been doing much of that at all.
To be honest I havent been feeling so hot lately. For the past month or so I've had horrible cramps. It hurts when I walk, when I cough, when I eat or drink...and when I take a leak. Right in the abdomen, like I have a knife in the intestines or like someone has been kicking me in the gut repeatedly. I dont know why its like this...and I'm scared to see a doctor because of what they might say...or they might put me on drugs like the last doctor did. Ghah. I just want a doctor I can trust that wont just put me on Effexor to make all my imaginary demons go away.
I want to see old friends...eat, drink and be merry. Like I used to. I miss Glyn, Gab....Mat...Fraser...a bunch of people I used to see but never see anymore. I think this is because I dont have the internet. It was my main means of communication with my friends. Hopefully this pain stops soon, I'm going in tomorrow to get looked at again, I just want it to stop so I can enjoy my summer.
Devin and I went on a road trip this month, to Quesnel so I could meet Devins family and friends. It was a nice vacation, except for the stabbing. Our first night there a bunch of us were hanging out and drinking, having a lovely evening....and then Dylan gets stabbed in the side by some crazy native guy. We all spent the night upset and fighting and drunk and worried...and in the cop shop. Joy. Dylan ended up ok though...he lost a lot of blood but the stiches fixed him up fine. The rest of the vacation was nice though. We went to barkerville and that was neat. Devins mom is a sweetheart, and I was happy to meet her. Dev surprised me by taking me to Hells Gate on the drive back to Van, the tram ride down was scary. Devin fed me a lot of delicious fudge. heres some pictures.
haha you can see hes having trouble with my heavy self
at hells gate
dev smoking pot with elvis
If theres one thing I can be optimistic about its my relationship. We're both very happy :)
Funlo, Jamie and I started taking diet pills a few days ago. I'm taking NV. It seems to be working so far, I've lost a few inches off my gut and my appetite is down. It also gave me the runs when I first started taking it. JOY!!!! Probably a good thing, I needed to do some "spring cleaning"
I hope I see some of you soon. I feel so boring and old, with so many ailments.
bitch, bitch bitch. Oh, and sorry for the lengthy entry.
Love, Leyna.
Life is ok. I've been feeling kind of low lately. I never see anyone anymore, just Devin and my roomate Jamie, and sometimes Laura and Erin. I need to get out. I miss a lot of people....but nobody calls me that used to call me. You guys gotta stop not being my friend. Perhaps I should listen to my own advice and call some people myself. I havent been doing much of that at all.
To be honest I havent been feeling so hot lately. For the past month or so I've had horrible cramps. It hurts when I walk, when I cough, when I eat or drink...and when I take a leak. Right in the abdomen, like I have a knife in the intestines or like someone has been kicking me in the gut repeatedly. I dont know why its like this...and I'm scared to see a doctor because of what they might say...or they might put me on drugs like the last doctor did. Ghah. I just want a doctor I can trust that wont just put me on Effexor to make all my imaginary demons go away.
I want to see old friends...eat, drink and be merry. Like I used to. I miss Glyn, Gab....Mat...Fraser...a bunch of people I used to see but never see anymore. I think this is because I dont have the internet. It was my main means of communication with my friends. Hopefully this pain stops soon, I'm going in tomorrow to get looked at again, I just want it to stop so I can enjoy my summer.
Devin and I went on a road trip this month, to Quesnel so I could meet Devins family and friends. It was a nice vacation, except for the stabbing. Our first night there a bunch of us were hanging out and drinking, having a lovely evening....and then Dylan gets stabbed in the side by some crazy native guy. We all spent the night upset and fighting and drunk and worried...and in the cop shop. Joy. Dylan ended up ok though...he lost a lot of blood but the stiches fixed him up fine. The rest of the vacation was nice though. We went to barkerville and that was neat. Devins mom is a sweetheart, and I was happy to meet her. Dev surprised me by taking me to Hells Gate on the drive back to Van, the tram ride down was scary. Devin fed me a lot of delicious fudge. heres some pictures.
haha you can see hes having trouble with my heavy self
at hells gate
dev smoking pot with elvis
If theres one thing I can be optimistic about its my relationship. We're both very happy :)
Funlo, Jamie and I started taking diet pills a few days ago. I'm taking NV. It seems to be working so far, I've lost a few inches off my gut and my appetite is down. It also gave me the runs when I first started taking it. JOY!!!! Probably a good thing, I needed to do some "spring cleaning"
I hope I see some of you soon. I feel so boring and old, with so many ailments.
bitch, bitch bitch. Oh, and sorry for the lengthy entry.
Love, Leyna.