sorry
sorry, that pretty much sums it all up.
Got a phone call from andy just now. He called to see how my family did with all of the hurricane mess. It was a nice gesture and it made me realize in so many different circumstances how much of a bitch i've been in my life to so many people, for many different reasons. The list of people I could apologize to is very long, especially with my recent "attempts" at having any sort of relationship b/w several different guys in the last year since Garth and I broke up. My own sister won't even talk to me anymore b/c she thinks I'm "too bossy" to her, which was essentially what ended my relationship with garth--my bossiness and controlling-ness. What an awful realization at 11 p.m. on one of the longest, most boring yet angst-ridden days I've had in such a long time. I am fully aware of what a baby I've been and how pushy, bossy, annoying, persistant and overdramatic I've been in several situations since, gosh, um probably the last 2 years when you think about it. I've lost some very imporant people in my life to stupid things, and those who I'd love to make at least 'friends' with don't want to have anything to do w/me b/c they realize how much of a dork I am for acting the way I do.
ugh...
Other than that, hurricane was SCARY and lots of stuff went on. I'm sorta sick of thinking about it, so I'm going to bed. All I got to say is that God is certainly trying to tell us something, and I feel like I should heed the warning and get to confession or something. Or, at least be a better person all around. which sorta goes back to the paragraph above. hmph.
g'night,
klc
Got a phone call from andy just now. He called to see how my family did with all of the hurricane mess. It was a nice gesture and it made me realize in so many different circumstances how much of a bitch i've been in my life to so many people, for many different reasons. The list of people I could apologize to is very long, especially with my recent "attempts" at having any sort of relationship b/w several different guys in the last year since Garth and I broke up. My own sister won't even talk to me anymore b/c she thinks I'm "too bossy" to her, which was essentially what ended my relationship with garth--my bossiness and controlling-ness. What an awful realization at 11 p.m. on one of the longest, most boring yet angst-ridden days I've had in such a long time. I am fully aware of what a baby I've been and how pushy, bossy, annoying, persistant and overdramatic I've been in several situations since, gosh, um probably the last 2 years when you think about it. I've lost some very imporant people in my life to stupid things, and those who I'd love to make at least 'friends' with don't want to have anything to do w/me b/c they realize how much of a dork I am for acting the way I do.
ugh...
Other than that, hurricane was SCARY and lots of stuff went on. I'm sorta sick of thinking about it, so I'm going to bed. All I got to say is that God is certainly trying to tell us something, and I feel like I should heed the warning and get to confession or something. Or, at least be a better person all around. which sorta goes back to the paragraph above. hmph.
g'night,
klc