Today was eventful...
I slept in again today... I think I'm turning into Sleeping Beauty... haha I went to bed at 1am and woke up at 5pm. There is something wrong with that...
Anyway, I woke up to the smell of my mommy's yummy Greek Stew. It made my tummy growl. I got dressed and asked my mom if we were still up for going out tonight.. she said yes, but she ended up taking a quick nap first. I ate... blahblah... Then at around 7pm we went out to the mall to walk around. We went into this store called Toxic to buy me a pair of 20-eyelet Doc Martens... but the stupid store had NOTHING in their inventory. The employees were dumb and probably too high to handle anything. I ask for a 6UK, and they bring out 6US. Then they brought out a 7UK, which is a 9US, which was WAY too big... ARGH. I was so sad... I was looking forward to getting some awesome boots that actually FIT me (my current buckled boots I own are actually way too big for me, and are uncomfortable) :[ But I'll have to order them online or something when I have money.
We left that store... walked around more, talked, and wound up in Target at the end of the mall (I friggin love Target). We automatically went to the Halloween section and I got friggin adorable knee-high socks and shirts and PJ pants. Heeheee
I'm going to call Mike "BE", and this mysterious and sweet boy of mine is "DB". We left.. got coffee on the way home... then she asked, "So I have to ask. What was it that you and BE were fighting about that made you leave?". I told her it was a fight about me talking to DB, and that he felt betrayed. Her comment, "Oh my god... Please! That is so immature and guvenile. You can talk to whomever you want to! Next time that happens, you kick HIM out.". I said, "He's just uncomfortable because DB likes me, and BE doesn't want us talking." She made a face and commented on how we're not together anymore and that I can talk to whomever I want, and so can DB. She then paused for a second and said, "Just promise me, who ever you get in a relationship with next, they had better be responsible and have direction in life." I smiled a bit and explained what DB is doing in life. I talked about him a little too much I think...
SIGH
I really can't stop thinking about DB. This morning I was so depressed, but after talking with my mom and about him to my mom, I missed talking to him so much. I don't know if I can make it 6 months.. It just hurts... I actually had that heart-break feeling in my chest. I hate the fact that the last time we talked on the phone that I had to sound so distant and cold... It's just BE was standing right behind me and listening in on the whole conversation. I couldn't say anything I wanted to, and I couldn't express how I really felt... but I miss DB. A lot. Like I said earlier... I think I'm turning into Sleeping Beauty. Sleeping away the days and months until I can be happy again. I fall asleep thinking about DB, and as soon as I wake up he's there again.
My mom mentioned she's going up to Seattle for a week in December to do a business trip.... random thought.
I want to travel...
I don't think I'm getting that job at Hot Topic. Both good and bad I suppose. Bad because I need money... and I want to help my mom pay off her debts and bills.. and to pay for my food so she doesn't have to. Good because it will keep me on track with art.. and I'll have all the time in the world to try for a tattoo apprenticeship.
Speaking of tattoos... I worked on my ankle tonight. I edited and fixed up the flock of bats that BE started. I filled in some bats, put in some new ones, extended the flock a little further down my foot, and made them darker. I'm proud of it. I really think my line-work is really good. I'm going to work on Mike's ribs tomorrow night. Hopefully I'll be able to finish it, but I don't know. He needs numbing cream because it's too painful for him, and he can't sit still without it.
hehe... those are my new PJ pants my mom got me at Target... ^-^ Lexy <3s Halloween
Anyone want a free tattoo? I love doing it, and I need practice and photos for my portfolio...
Oh my god I'm so depressed.. UGHHH... fuck.
Oh... my mom and I also talked about BE moving out. and what we aren't paying for anymore.. and how to handle me giving him my car. (Don't worry, I'm going to work on getting a new one. He can have my current one.) And he'll be able to have a car that's not a POS that'll last him a long while.
I ordered a movie On Demand. The Bank Job. It looks like a British Ocean's Eleven. Although... not. I guess it's just a British heist movie.. heh. I'll watch it by myself (sigh) when I'm done typing... I'm too busy ranting to pay attention to it right now.
BE just made a bitter joke about DB. Ugh. ...I want my room back.
...I want money so I can go get my back piece. And my lower-belly piece... I need tattooist friends. :P
I need a life again.
I still haven't forgiven BE for yelling at me and insulting me the way he did... Insulting my intelligence, my age, my integrity, my capabilities of having a relationship... eff that. I have never been so pissed off... I don't look at him the same at all. Insulting ME of all people.
And he's talking to this chick in England. I'm going to call her "J". He comes up to me and tells me how he and J have this weird strange connection. They've only been talking for a few weeks, but they already feel like they know each other. They're already talking about the future and aren't freaked out about it. They're trying to figure out how to be together... and they both say it's moving so fast, but they're okay with it. That he and J just have this weird connection... a connection he hasn't felt since M. He looked at me and asked if that was weird and if I understand. ............. Gee. Really? Yeah. I understand perfectly. Except I have no problems with him talking to J. In fact. I helped him set up a webcam, and buy a new one, so he could talk with her. Yes, I understand fine. I know exactly what he's talking about.
I miss hanging out with Kimmi too. I want to go get sushi and complain about people we hate. Then giggle about stupid non-sense... talk about games and random hobbies... concider what we could bake that night at midnight... play DDR while we wait for cookies to be done in the oven... then get all dressed up and take silly photos together. I miss that... :[
Kimmi, I think you'll like DB. I think you'll like him a lot. I do.
If I don't stop typing now I'm going to end up writing a friggin love letter. I'll spare you that.
To occupy your eyes however...
Anyway, I woke up to the smell of my mommy's yummy Greek Stew. It made my tummy growl. I got dressed and asked my mom if we were still up for going out tonight.. she said yes, but she ended up taking a quick nap first. I ate... blahblah... Then at around 7pm we went out to the mall to walk around. We went into this store called Toxic to buy me a pair of 20-eyelet Doc Martens... but the stupid store had NOTHING in their inventory. The employees were dumb and probably too high to handle anything. I ask for a 6UK, and they bring out 6US. Then they brought out a 7UK, which is a 9US, which was WAY too big... ARGH. I was so sad... I was looking forward to getting some awesome boots that actually FIT me (my current buckled boots I own are actually way too big for me, and are uncomfortable) :[ But I'll have to order them online or something when I have money.
We left that store... walked around more, talked, and wound up in Target at the end of the mall (I friggin love Target). We automatically went to the Halloween section and I got friggin adorable knee-high socks and shirts and PJ pants. Heeheee
I'm going to call Mike "BE", and this mysterious and sweet boy of mine is "DB". We left.. got coffee on the way home... then she asked, "So I have to ask. What was it that you and BE were fighting about that made you leave?". I told her it was a fight about me talking to DB, and that he felt betrayed. Her comment, "Oh my god... Please! That is so immature and guvenile. You can talk to whomever you want to! Next time that happens, you kick HIM out.". I said, "He's just uncomfortable because DB likes me, and BE doesn't want us talking." She made a face and commented on how we're not together anymore and that I can talk to whomever I want, and so can DB. She then paused for a second and said, "Just promise me, who ever you get in a relationship with next, they had better be responsible and have direction in life." I smiled a bit and explained what DB is doing in life. I talked about him a little too much I think...
SIGH
I really can't stop thinking about DB. This morning I was so depressed, but after talking with my mom and about him to my mom, I missed talking to him so much. I don't know if I can make it 6 months.. It just hurts... I actually had that heart-break feeling in my chest. I hate the fact that the last time we talked on the phone that I had to sound so distant and cold... It's just BE was standing right behind me and listening in on the whole conversation. I couldn't say anything I wanted to, and I couldn't express how I really felt... but I miss DB. A lot. Like I said earlier... I think I'm turning into Sleeping Beauty. Sleeping away the days and months until I can be happy again. I fall asleep thinking about DB, and as soon as I wake up he's there again.
My mom mentioned she's going up to Seattle for a week in December to do a business trip.... random thought.
I want to travel...
I don't think I'm getting that job at Hot Topic. Both good and bad I suppose. Bad because I need money... and I want to help my mom pay off her debts and bills.. and to pay for my food so she doesn't have to. Good because it will keep me on track with art.. and I'll have all the time in the world to try for a tattoo apprenticeship.
Speaking of tattoos... I worked on my ankle tonight. I edited and fixed up the flock of bats that BE started. I filled in some bats, put in some new ones, extended the flock a little further down my foot, and made them darker. I'm proud of it. I really think my line-work is really good. I'm going to work on Mike's ribs tomorrow night. Hopefully I'll be able to finish it, but I don't know. He needs numbing cream because it's too painful for him, and he can't sit still without it.
hehe... those are my new PJ pants my mom got me at Target... ^-^ Lexy <3s Halloween
Anyone want a free tattoo? I love doing it, and I need practice and photos for my portfolio...
Oh my god I'm so depressed.. UGHHH... fuck.
Oh... my mom and I also talked about BE moving out. and what we aren't paying for anymore.. and how to handle me giving him my car. (Don't worry, I'm going to work on getting a new one. He can have my current one.) And he'll be able to have a car that's not a POS that'll last him a long while.
I ordered a movie On Demand. The Bank Job. It looks like a British Ocean's Eleven. Although... not. I guess it's just a British heist movie.. heh. I'll watch it by myself (sigh) when I'm done typing... I'm too busy ranting to pay attention to it right now.
BE just made a bitter joke about DB. Ugh. ...I want my room back.
...I want money so I can go get my back piece. And my lower-belly piece... I need tattooist friends. :P
I need a life again.
I still haven't forgiven BE for yelling at me and insulting me the way he did... Insulting my intelligence, my age, my integrity, my capabilities of having a relationship... eff that. I have never been so pissed off... I don't look at him the same at all. Insulting ME of all people.
And he's talking to this chick in England. I'm going to call her "J". He comes up to me and tells me how he and J have this weird strange connection. They've only been talking for a few weeks, but they already feel like they know each other. They're already talking about the future and aren't freaked out about it. They're trying to figure out how to be together... and they both say it's moving so fast, but they're okay with it. That he and J just have this weird connection... a connection he hasn't felt since M. He looked at me and asked if that was weird and if I understand. ............. Gee. Really? Yeah. I understand perfectly. Except I have no problems with him talking to J. In fact. I helped him set up a webcam, and buy a new one, so he could talk with her. Yes, I understand fine. I know exactly what he's talking about.
I miss hanging out with Kimmi too. I want to go get sushi and complain about people we hate. Then giggle about stupid non-sense... talk about games and random hobbies... concider what we could bake that night at midnight... play DDR while we wait for cookies to be done in the oven... then get all dressed up and take silly photos together. I miss that... :[
Kimmi, I think you'll like DB. I think you'll like him a lot. I do.
If I don't stop typing now I'm going to end up writing a friggin love letter. I'll spare you that.
To occupy your eyes however...