i can feel things are changing.
school starts in exactly one week. then what? this was my goal. i've accomplished it. so...now i need a new one!
i am applying to mfa programs to get my masters in poetry. because i truly love the stuff. even if other people's poems are always more beautiful than mine. that's okay. i just love it.
i love a lot of things, really. i am trying to think about life positively. it's hard. one day, the world is infinite! the next day, i would like to buy a shotgun, please. but really, a cool summer night when you can see the stars from the city, and the crickets are cricketing in the school yard down the street, and the stray cats all try to follow me home when i'm walking back from the convenience store with a half a gallon of raspberry iced tea and apples with peanut butter...how can anything feel wrong?
it's sad that today was the first day of summer that really felt like summer to me.
i wasted the rest away wishing i could feel things the way i used to.
when this was all i needed.
and drives through forests at sunset.
i really do feel things changing.
and i think it's all for the best.
i'm going to new mexico in the fall to see the aspens and run through the mountains along the little stream where i once sat and stared up at the sky, while taking a sip from a cheap can of beer and feeling warm and alive, with two girls i hardly knew.
i hope i see a shooting star, or two.
i am applying to mfa programs to get my masters in poetry. because i truly love the stuff. even if other people's poems are always more beautiful than mine. that's okay. i just love it.
i love a lot of things, really. i am trying to think about life positively. it's hard. one day, the world is infinite! the next day, i would like to buy a shotgun, please. but really, a cool summer night when you can see the stars from the city, and the crickets are cricketing in the school yard down the street, and the stray cats all try to follow me home when i'm walking back from the convenience store with a half a gallon of raspberry iced tea and apples with peanut butter...how can anything feel wrong?
it's sad that today was the first day of summer that really felt like summer to me.
i wasted the rest away wishing i could feel things the way i used to.
when this was all i needed.
and drives through forests at sunset.
i really do feel things changing.
and i think it's all for the best.
i'm going to new mexico in the fall to see the aspens and run through the mountains along the little stream where i once sat and stared up at the sky, while taking a sip from a cheap can of beer and feeling warm and alive, with two girls i hardly knew.
i hope i see a shooting star, or two.