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[lexluther_]

I honestly love living out here. For the first time in my life I don't feel like I have something to live up to and it feels so good to have no pressure on you. And not having pressure on me gives me the motivation to actually want to succeed and do a good job. I know that I am going to grow so much out here and become the person that I want to be. I can see and feel myself already changing so much. Not knowing anyone and having no one know what I am like is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I don't want people to think that I have become a whole other person, but I am finally able to act and be the way I want to be without an judgment or criticism. I feel that back in Boston I had to be judgmental and rude and crass and obnoxious and a bitch, and here I don't have to be. I am calm and relaxed. Not living with my parents is probably the most weight that has been lifted off of my shoulders. It's not that I don't love them or miss them, but they are such volatile people that living with them was sending me down a path that I could no longer take. There isn't one second that I really regret doing this. I definitely miss my friends, but I know that they are all just a phone call and a plane ride away. I think the time apart with make me miss them more and forget the few negative things about them that would drive me crazy.

I just really wish that everyone could be given the same opportunity that I was.