I'm a fool for love
Granted, I'm probably not making the best decisions about guys-- well one guy, in particular. I want to throw up my hands. I can't help who I like. I can't control the timing. Why is timing such a large part of it?
Can't you just realize how good we'd be together? Don't you see we get along together? I know you feel the connection. I KNOW you are attracted to me; as much as I am to you. I guess you either don't like me enough or are too scared to deal with change to try things with me.
This, makes me angry. Angry at you for not treating me like I deserve and angry at myself for thinking about it. I wish I could just quit liking you. I wish I didn't sit around and wait, hoping you'll drop things. I wish things were that easy. Wouldn't it be nice to just switch like that? Like a light switch, I'd cut my losses, keep those memories of us fishing, Savannah, drinking and watching movies, kissing on the bay and move on. I wouldn't be lame sitting here, thinking every song on the radio speaks to me. If only things were that easy and my emotions were logical.
Too bad I've cut back on drinking....