change of plans
so I am being the anti child. I'm going against everyone's wishes. screw planning ahead and doing things to make others happy. I found this fashion program in burbank, CA and I sent in my application. I want to go sooooo much...you don't even know! I'll get financial aid or do whatever it takes because I know my family is against anything that is not "traditional college" and they won't pay. but I HAVE to do this for myself....I have to at least try and see if I could make it. I don't want to end up with some college degree doing something that doesn't make me happy. I hope they understand.
last night was crazed! I went up to school with logan and predrank at pj's apt. lots and lots of fun....UNTIL we got to the bar. pj tells me I should use my fake because we knew the girl at the door and she is a friend of ours. well guess what? the little bitch wouldn't let me in because it was her first day on the job and blah blah blah...she didn't want to get in trouble. I ended up going to the tke house and helping those guys paint. there I am, in my skirt and high heels, painting the tke house....justin ended up giving me an outfit of his to wear so I wouldn't get dirty. pj comes back and convinces me to go back to theos and use my real id....this takes A LOT of convincing because I feel like my pride is at stake :) but my friends were all inside so I did it anyhow. my older friends snuck my shots anyhow so all was okay. it was so strange to see people that I hadn't seen in forever and ever like......ahhhh christine (my old roomie who moved to florida and is now back) haha, she's still the same, little drunk only now she is legal. we stayed at the bar for a while, but I was sobering up and could only take so much of guys grabbing my ass and trying to hump me on the dance floor. the only guy I want to grab my ass wasn't there and that made me sad....I miss him a lot. I really want to talk to him and have everything be alright. maybe in time, but maybe not....
last night was crazed! I went up to school with logan and predrank at pj's apt. lots and lots of fun....UNTIL we got to the bar. pj tells me I should use my fake because we knew the girl at the door and she is a friend of ours. well guess what? the little bitch wouldn't let me in because it was her first day on the job and blah blah blah...she didn't want to get in trouble. I ended up going to the tke house and helping those guys paint. there I am, in my skirt and high heels, painting the tke house....justin ended up giving me an outfit of his to wear so I wouldn't get dirty. pj comes back and convinces me to go back to theos and use my real id....this takes A LOT of convincing because I feel like my pride is at stake :) but my friends were all inside so I did it anyhow. my older friends snuck my shots anyhow so all was okay. it was so strange to see people that I hadn't seen in forever and ever like......ahhhh christine (my old roomie who moved to florida and is now back) haha, she's still the same, little drunk only now she is legal. we stayed at the bar for a while, but I was sobering up and could only take so much of guys grabbing my ass and trying to hump me on the dance floor. the only guy I want to grab my ass wasn't there and that made me sad....I miss him a lot. I really want to talk to him and have everything be alright. maybe in time, but maybe not....