my poor toe
two days ago kyle made me walk like 2 miles while we talked about stuff. and i was wearing flip flops. my toe is now a huge ball of red blister. it hurts so bad. i didnt realize that it looked as bad as it did until i looked at it tonight. its all red and bloody. just a big mess. i dont kno what that has to do with anything besides the fact that its gross but i thought i'd share.
one a different note
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
i wish that i was strong like the voice in this song. i've tried to be but its hard to hide tears. especially when you're me and you cant really keep them from flowing freely. yesterday i was the strong one. i forced myself to be. and now i regret it. i kno that if i hadnt done it then it would have been done today or tomoro. i hate it that kyle keeps telling me its alright. he's comforting me for him leaving me. i feel so pathetic. i feel so used and thrown away. how can he just get over it? how could this relationship have meant so much to me but he can just let go of it as long as he knows that i'm gonna stick around for a while for him to cry on? i dont wanna be bitter about it... i really dont. its just i see all these people that are so happy and together. i wanna be "together" again. i dont wanna be alone. i searched for what i had with kyle all my life and it didnt last forever like it was supposed to. the face that used to make me light up inside now makes me wanna die. when i see him i just wanna run away to a place where i'm loved. where someone would tell me they loved me and feel it forever.
i hate kyle for ruining my image of love. i hate him for taking from me everything i had to express it. how can it be half as good for some other guy now? all i have to give i gave to him so now all i can be is sloppy seconds. i hate him for falling out of love with me. i hate him for ever telling me he did love me. i hate him for hurting me and i hate him for sheltering me. i hate him for letting me run to him and depend on him. i hate him for making me laugh and making me cry and making me feel like the world. i hate him for caring about me and i hate him for ever asking me out. i hate the time we spent together and i wish it never happened. i wish i'd never met him. ihate him for never caring about me as much as i cared about him. i hate him for lying to me. i hate him for hiding from me. i hate him so much that it makes me sick that i ever loved him. i hate him becuz i'm still in love with him. i hate him becuz he's making me let go. i hate him becuz tomoro i'll call him. i hate him becuz we'll be friends forever. i hate him becuz i have to change everything about my life all the way down to the welcome message on my fuckin cell fone screen. i hate him cuz i keep crying and i feel like a fuckin stupid little girl. i hate him becuz ppl are gonna look at me as the girl who coudlnt keep the boy she loved. i hate him becuz no matter how many times i say it he'll never come back. i just want him back...
one a different note
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
i wish that i was strong like the voice in this song. i've tried to be but its hard to hide tears. especially when you're me and you cant really keep them from flowing freely. yesterday i was the strong one. i forced myself to be. and now i regret it. i kno that if i hadnt done it then it would have been done today or tomoro. i hate it that kyle keeps telling me its alright. he's comforting me for him leaving me. i feel so pathetic. i feel so used and thrown away. how can he just get over it? how could this relationship have meant so much to me but he can just let go of it as long as he knows that i'm gonna stick around for a while for him to cry on? i dont wanna be bitter about it... i really dont. its just i see all these people that are so happy and together. i wanna be "together" again. i dont wanna be alone. i searched for what i had with kyle all my life and it didnt last forever like it was supposed to. the face that used to make me light up inside now makes me wanna die. when i see him i just wanna run away to a place where i'm loved. where someone would tell me they loved me and feel it forever.
i hate kyle for ruining my image of love. i hate him for taking from me everything i had to express it. how can it be half as good for some other guy now? all i have to give i gave to him so now all i can be is sloppy seconds. i hate him for falling out of love with me. i hate him for ever telling me he did love me. i hate him for hurting me and i hate him for sheltering me. i hate him for letting me run to him and depend on him. i hate him for making me laugh and making me cry and making me feel like the world. i hate him for caring about me and i hate him for ever asking me out. i hate the time we spent together and i wish it never happened. i wish i'd never met him. ihate him for never caring about me as much as i cared about him. i hate him for lying to me. i hate him for hiding from me. i hate him so much that it makes me sick that i ever loved him. i hate him becuz i'm still in love with him. i hate him becuz he's making me let go. i hate him becuz tomoro i'll call him. i hate him becuz we'll be friends forever. i hate him becuz i have to change everything about my life all the way down to the welcome message on my fuckin cell fone screen. i hate him cuz i keep crying and i feel like a fuckin stupid little girl. i hate him becuz ppl are gonna look at me as the girl who coudlnt keep the boy she loved. i hate him becuz no matter how many times i say it he'll never come back. i just want him back...