this explains my head better than i can
Everything with alyssa is so hard for me to deal with right now. i just hope she knows how i feel someday- one day- the idea of being her friend again seems like a dream- like its heaven and i'm damned to hell...
deep breath-
Crossfade
» Cold
Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be cold to you
And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
I never meant to be sooo cold
I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be cold
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be cold
the last verse just kinda takes the cake i guess you could say- i couldn't explain it better myself.
and as much as i lock on live journal- i'm gonna keep this one open- because maybe one day alyssa just might find it and do me the favor of reading it- then maybe she will give me a chance to tell her whats on my mind. let her read all the enteries on here- i only want her to know how i feel- how she chooses to act after that is her decision. i just want her to know how horrible i feel- i know, i'm dreaming- i'm never getting a second chance- not that i deserve one- but if only i had that second chance- i would make up for everything i did- everything-
<3 lexi
deep breath-
Crossfade
» Cold
Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be cold to you
And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
I never meant to be sooo cold
I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be cold
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be cold
the last verse just kinda takes the cake i guess you could say- i couldn't explain it better myself.
and as much as i lock on live journal- i'm gonna keep this one open- because maybe one day alyssa just might find it and do me the favor of reading it- then maybe she will give me a chance to tell her whats on my mind. let her read all the enteries on here- i only want her to know how i feel- how she chooses to act after that is her decision. i just want her to know how horrible i feel- i know, i'm dreaming- i'm never getting a second chance- not that i deserve one- but if only i had that second chance- i would make up for everything i did- everything-
<3 lexi