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it's been far too long, and i know that. i've been trying to steer myself away from updating this only when i'm sad and depressed, so i haven't updated in a while. i'm getting worn down...burning the candle at both ends, i think they say...and just being so busy that i have no time to myself or to relax or to do anything. it's always work and school and crew and sleep...and some of those haven't been going so well as i should like. i don't think i'll ever stop wondering what would have happened if i had never transfered back to california, if i had stayed and stuck it out in tennessee...at least i would be graduating this year...but then again, i probably wouldn't be going to south africa, ireland, or england either...but a lot of other things would have happened...and maybe they would have been worth more...i guess i'll never know. not knowing blows.
i'm not going to lie...it's been disheartening these past weeks, and i miss a lot of people...a lot of people more than i have the words or capacity...or sometimes courage...to tell them. *sigh* i miss you and i love you and i just thought that you should know that i think about you all the time.
i'm not going to lie...it's been disheartening these past weeks, and i miss a lot of people...a lot of people more than i have the words or capacity...or sometimes courage...to tell them. *sigh* i miss you and i love you and i just thought that you should know that i think about you all the time.