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You know... this is really pathetic, but oh well... lets face it I like drama, I am consummed by it or just cant get away from it so why not just let it continue on the most dramatic place on earth... LIVEJOURNAL! Therefore, I am not going to stop here. Everyone reads livejournal and I am sick of people just assuming how I feel so I am going to stoop to everyone elses level and just lay it out there for everyone to hear... because I am past the point of caring!
First off, I am so glad that my last post was such a hit with what people said about me. I mean, I know that there are people who do have problems with me, some who know me well and some who just know waht they see. But the two kinds of people share one thing in common right now... neither have taken the chance or time to talk to me or in one particular case fix things. Because of this I completely give up on you people which will completely explain why I may seem like I have "changed" which by the way is the most pathetic thing anyone can say about another human being. Its like an insult trying to be all secretive so that the person wont get offended but really it can be the most hurtful thing to say. You know that whenever someone says "you've changed" there is lots of hidden subtext like "you've changed" means you arent fun anymore, you are a royal bitch, you are snotty and self conceided, or it could even mean that you got kinda fat and ugly. But whatever sub text it is used in, "You've changed" is NEVER a nice thing to say.
Secondly, for anyone who may think that my life is perfect now, or that its a peice of cake, or that I think I am the coolest girl in the school because I have everything that I have always wanted you are completely imaturely wrong!!!!!!!!!!!! Because if you knew an ounce of what my life was like outside of what you may see then you would know that I am terribly sad and upset that it is my senior year, everyone who I know and have become so close to over the years will be going away in different directions in about 7 months. And to top that off, half of the people that I have relied on and put so much trust and faith in have gotten farther and fartehr away. So when I get home at the end of the day and read my and other peoples stupid livejournals and read things that are written to purtposefully upset me and put me down then it is garenteed that I will be hurt. And I hope that whoever it is writting things to hurt me feels really good about themselves in the end because at least someone would get something out of it. No matter what kind of history, no matter how much I hated someone I would never ridicule them for everyone to read. And the thing about my last post was that it was just for fun... I got it off Jackie's livejournal thought it could be interesting and all but whatever. I am not mad. I just dont think there is one single person who has any right to say what was said about me. It is obvious that you know litte about me and if you really are a freind of mine like you say then have the decency to talk to my face so I dont have to write about it on livejournal.
And in reality, ITS JUST HIGHSCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!! So what if a girl is bitchy... chances are shes on her period! So what if people judge you they probably just want to be like you or dont have as much self confidence as you. So what if people laugh at you and make fun of every mistake you ever make, they probably have a crush on you or just feel better about themselves by putting you down. And if a friend "stabs you in the back" deal with it you have probably stabbed them in the back before too. People are liars, cheaters, sluts, drunks, bitches, jerks, and everything else you can think of. As long as you know what you do and dont want to be like then nothing else matters. You dont have to be friends with people you dont like, if you dont like me, tell me and we dont have to be friends. I used to want to be friends with everyone and trust me I still do the only difference now is I am not going to waste my time on you just so that you can bring me down if you dont really like me. And since highschool will be over soon then there is no point in taking the time to care and worry about all the people that think bad things about you...
...Like my mom has always said, "If you can't say something nice, dont say anything at all."
First off, I am so glad that my last post was such a hit with what people said about me. I mean, I know that there are people who do have problems with me, some who know me well and some who just know waht they see. But the two kinds of people share one thing in common right now... neither have taken the chance or time to talk to me or in one particular case fix things. Because of this I completely give up on you people which will completely explain why I may seem like I have "changed" which by the way is the most pathetic thing anyone can say about another human being. Its like an insult trying to be all secretive so that the person wont get offended but really it can be the most hurtful thing to say. You know that whenever someone says "you've changed" there is lots of hidden subtext like "you've changed" means you arent fun anymore, you are a royal bitch, you are snotty and self conceided, or it could even mean that you got kinda fat and ugly. But whatever sub text it is used in, "You've changed" is NEVER a nice thing to say.
Secondly, for anyone who may think that my life is perfect now, or that its a peice of cake, or that I think I am the coolest girl in the school because I have everything that I have always wanted you are completely imaturely wrong!!!!!!!!!!!! Because if you knew an ounce of what my life was like outside of what you may see then you would know that I am terribly sad and upset that it is my senior year, everyone who I know and have become so close to over the years will be going away in different directions in about 7 months. And to top that off, half of the people that I have relied on and put so much trust and faith in have gotten farther and fartehr away. So when I get home at the end of the day and read my and other peoples stupid livejournals and read things that are written to purtposefully upset me and put me down then it is garenteed that I will be hurt. And I hope that whoever it is writting things to hurt me feels really good about themselves in the end because at least someone would get something out of it. No matter what kind of history, no matter how much I hated someone I would never ridicule them for everyone to read. And the thing about my last post was that it was just for fun... I got it off Jackie's livejournal thought it could be interesting and all but whatever. I am not mad. I just dont think there is one single person who has any right to say what was said about me. It is obvious that you know litte about me and if you really are a freind of mine like you say then have the decency to talk to my face so I dont have to write about it on livejournal.
And in reality, ITS JUST HIGHSCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!! So what if a girl is bitchy... chances are shes on her period! So what if people judge you they probably just want to be like you or dont have as much self confidence as you. So what if people laugh at you and make fun of every mistake you ever make, they probably have a crush on you or just feel better about themselves by putting you down. And if a friend "stabs you in the back" deal with it you have probably stabbed them in the back before too. People are liars, cheaters, sluts, drunks, bitches, jerks, and everything else you can think of. As long as you know what you do and dont want to be like then nothing else matters. You dont have to be friends with people you dont like, if you dont like me, tell me and we dont have to be friends. I used to want to be friends with everyone and trust me I still do the only difference now is I am not going to waste my time on you just so that you can bring me down if you dont really like me. And since highschool will be over soon then there is no point in taking the time to care and worry about all the people that think bad things about you...
...Like my mom has always said, "If you can't say something nice, dont say anything at all."