What has happend to me*!?
I am falling apart*!! my life is horrible and i dont know what to do anymore*!! i dont have no one to turn to*! i feel as if i am standing in a crowd and crying for help but when i reach out i cant feel anyone*! they are like ghost you pass right through me*! ever since Theo's death i just havent been the same*! i need someone to talk but i cant*! i feel as if i might be lossing my friends which hurt me the worst of all*! i feel alone and i dont know why*! why do people have to lie*?! i freakin hate High school drama so bad*! i want to leave this place and never return*! i know that i have ppl who love me but for some reason in my mind they dont feel there*!! i wish that i could turn back the time and fix a bunch of stuff*!! a great friendship that i dont know where it went*! but i know it is still there*!-Mar tell him how much he means to me*! and explain why i did the things i did*!!-Brian see him one last time before he spread his wings and flew away forever*!! give him one last kiss and hug*!- Theo those are just a few of many*!! i regret a lot of things i have done*!! i cant describe the feeling that i feel as of this moment*! i will never be my normal self again*! i ask myself everyday.....What can i do*!? Where can I go*!? Who is there*?! What would it be like if things were the same as it was before*!? Why did i do the things i do*!? Will that happen to my child*!? and many, many, more just play in my mind*!! if you can be there to help me when i reach out in the crowd and know that i can grab on ......plz Help Me*!!