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You made me cry today..you made me fill nothing at all, I feel numb!! You didn't cheat but it seems that way; when you say the things you said last nite and today. It's hurts me more than you can ever imagin..why is it that everytime i get close to someone, trying to let them in it always turns back around and stabs me to death. i dont know were my heart stands rite now.. i love my baby, i really do! But i dont know how to control my anger, my life, my everything is going away!! we are trying to make it past this stupid problem but we are stuck, i am stuck at does she even care. i'm trying to be happy..but i never cried like this before. im losing my baby and i dont know how to stop it... her dreams,thoughts, her everything is destroying our relationship..everything we have is slowly dying off cuz i have no idea on how to deal with it...i can take so much until i cant take no more.. i'm slowly but surely drinking my life away.. i know it is stupid..but oh well it's not your life it's mine..im sadden by how people act..they try to cover all there problems but i can see all of their broken lies. I love my stasiy... i dont want this to end nor does she want me to go.. i'm standing by her 110% i try to understand what is going on.. life seems so boring and sometimes i dont want to go on!! Stasiy and I want to go to an airport and fly far away..not telling anyone were we are going and start a new life.. i want to get stasiy a ring an promise ring...i want to promise her i will always be there when she needs someone...