Empy
another update.. im feeling better but i am still sick. about the g/f well we doing ok rite now.. i miss her so much but i dont know... i have been talking to some of my ex's and they are telling me shit that i dont want to hear but i still somewhat hear it. anyways i fucking love my girl.. oh oh once again i skipped class im bored with it!! it's pointless to go and do the same bull shit over and over...grrrr im getting over with the PA dying thing now i dont cry. Lately i have been keeping to myself.. i belive it was that i was sick but i realized that it has been becuase of my Pa...i keep on dwelling on stupid shit..i need to push on and be strong.. why is it so much easier to say that than do it? i'm a totally bitch i have been so controling lately...i told my girl i didn't want her to go to some ones house WTF is up with me... im fine i swear.. i just want to crawl in a hole somewhere and slowly become a hermet..i hate people that talk shit to me girl friend telling them that i fucked them over WTF that was like 3 years ago... plus i never fucked them over they fucking hurt me... i want to be numb from girls.. go on with like not caring.. oh well that will never happen so here i am... a fucking lesbian stuck in a life of Hell.. one day you will all miss me....what if i killed myself you you ever know that i am gone? would you care? would you cry? Do you even remeber my name? i have some much shit going on in my head i dont know how to get it out......GRRRRRRR what is wrong with me? this is the end for a while....