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Why the bloody hell do I even still have this thing? For moments like this, that's why.
I've had it up to my eyeballs with my mother. First it was my family, then my parents, now just my mother. I take solace in the fact that I'm not alone, most females in their 20s hate or strongly dislike their moms. Mothers are intrusive, demanding, bossy, bitchy, passive-aggressive, and just plain annoying. Mine...ok, she used to be pretty cool. All my friends wanted to have my mom as theirs because she let us smoke in the backyard, or hang out in the basement. Then I got the boot at 18 and since then my life's been a nightmare. All I need is the courage to say "LEAVE ME ALONE" to her and I think I'd be ok. The other day I phoned her to cancel a favor I'd asked for, and she oh-so-UNcasually tells me that my friend James might have liver cancer and he said he wants to marry me and have kids before he dies. I asked if he said that, or if SHE said that. She laughed, as she always does when she knows I'm mad because she thinks it lightens the mood. She explained that she was talking to him and after he told her that, she said he could marry me. He said yeah, but she has a boyfriend. My darling mother said no, she just has a roommate. SEETHE. I'm so fucking tired of this. 10 months he's been here and she can't get her head out of her ass long enough to get to know him. Anyways, again with the uncomfortable laughter. So I laid it out. "Let me get this straight...I'm supposed to marry someone I don't love, have kids, only to have my husband die and leave me with a family I don't want, just to make YOU happy??" Again, laughter. Well, she'll take care of the kids, she said. FUME. She is unfuckingbelievable. I pretty much laid into her after that, as calmly as I could since I was at work. Then today I'm reading the new Cosmo and there's an article about how to handle your mother! It didn't offer much help but still, I wasn't alone.
Other than the drama with her, I'm pretty damn happy. Bailey goes to the vet tomorrow for 3 different operations so I'm a little nervous and sad for her, especially because we're looking at a $600-$750 bill.
I'm so hungry. :(
I've had it up to my eyeballs with my mother. First it was my family, then my parents, now just my mother. I take solace in the fact that I'm not alone, most females in their 20s hate or strongly dislike their moms. Mothers are intrusive, demanding, bossy, bitchy, passive-aggressive, and just plain annoying. Mine...ok, she used to be pretty cool. All my friends wanted to have my mom as theirs because she let us smoke in the backyard, or hang out in the basement. Then I got the boot at 18 and since then my life's been a nightmare. All I need is the courage to say "LEAVE ME ALONE" to her and I think I'd be ok. The other day I phoned her to cancel a favor I'd asked for, and she oh-so-UNcasually tells me that my friend James might have liver cancer and he said he wants to marry me and have kids before he dies. I asked if he said that, or if SHE said that. She laughed, as she always does when she knows I'm mad because she thinks it lightens the mood. She explained that she was talking to him and after he told her that, she said he could marry me. He said yeah, but she has a boyfriend. My darling mother said no, she just has a roommate. SEETHE. I'm so fucking tired of this. 10 months he's been here and she can't get her head out of her ass long enough to get to know him. Anyways, again with the uncomfortable laughter. So I laid it out. "Let me get this straight...I'm supposed to marry someone I don't love, have kids, only to have my husband die and leave me with a family I don't want, just to make YOU happy??" Again, laughter. Well, she'll take care of the kids, she said. FUME. She is unfuckingbelievable. I pretty much laid into her after that, as calmly as I could since I was at work. Then today I'm reading the new Cosmo and there's an article about how to handle your mother! It didn't offer much help but still, I wasn't alone.
Other than the drama with her, I'm pretty damn happy. Bailey goes to the vet tomorrow for 3 different operations so I'm a little nervous and sad for her, especially because we're looking at a $600-$750 bill.
I'm so hungry. :(