I think I found my twin
I have days when I feel strong, and that I am moving foward rather than stay standing or lag behind with the down feeling. Those are the days when I dont think about Andrew, or even if he passes through my mind, its of a good thought of when he was here in the summer, and how I felt when I was with him, or its a feeling of its okay if he has a girlfriend and doesnt think about me the way he did before, because Im moving on. Those are the days when I feel good and strong. They are also the days when I dont miss Joe, or hope that he will call me because I have to many other plans or things to do. Those are the days when I just feel good about everything that is going on around me, and Im just purely happy. Sometimes I get the days, when I think about Andrew and start to miss him, and just imagine what things could be like if he was here. I have reoccuring dreams that I have remembered of being at the airport and seeing him and I would run up to him and be in his arms, and feel an overpowering feeling of happiness and love all at once.... and then the dream ends. My dream that Ive had a few times is something that I want to happen in real life, but if it doesnt happen with that special one being andrew, I know its not the end of the world, because I know I can feel that way with someone else. And I am being completly honest with myself, that this is how I really feel. That if I never get to be with Andrew again, that its not the end of the world and that I cannot go on, because I know I can. I know there is always someone else out there. And I think this is a big step of maturity for me, to think like that in a positive way. And I made a friend who has the same mentality about that as I do, and I think she is like my twin......
She says that if her boyfriend broke up with her, it would be extremely sad, but it wouldnt drive her off the edge, because she knows she can always find someone else. (there are so many fish in the sea) Her name is Maria, she is 23 and she has been dating Rob for 5 years. She works with me at Claires, and everytime we work together we are always laughing about something stupid, along with Agatha. We always imitate the stupid dances Sandra does like "the lawn mower' "the kitchen" "the bus driver" "the sprinkler" and we made our own new one, get ready.... its called "the pony" The three of us always have fun at work.
Maria and I both have the same pickiness in what we are attracted to in guys as far as appearance goes. We both like the tall skinny pale ones that have the rock look to them. Thats what I usually go for, tall and skinny. Out of the three guys I have had serious real feelings for, Andrew doesnt fit into that catagory. Infact when alot of my friends met him, they all thought he wasnt my type by his appearance. But out of those three guys, Andrew is the one that really holds a special place, and has for a long time. Anyways, Maria and I both have the same birthday month of April, we both like the same music, we both like to dress the same, we both have the same views on alot of things, and we both think we are like twins. She came over on Sunday to help me dye my hair and it turned out really good. I dyed it this burduny red color, and then she put thin black streaks in my hair and black in the underneath that has a red base. It looks really cool. Its hard to tell the difference between the red and black, so my hair just looks really dark, but its cool because everyone says it brings out the brown in my eyes, and they all love it :) The next thing Im doing to it is put crimson red streaks in my hair to give it a more red look. I cant wait!! One of these days we are gonna go to the Aventura mall and go shopping in hot topic and urban outfitters. Im due for some new clothes.
One of the girls I work with (Abby) just had her first longest relationship of a month with this boy Bobby. Its cool because its the first guy she has ever really had feelings for, cared about etc. i feel really bad for her though because he had to move to Tamapa and she took him to the train station the other day to say goodbye. I told her that I knew exactly how she felt, saying goodbye like that. And I promised her that one of these weekends when I go visit my old friends in Tampa, I would bring her with me so she can see bobby again.
Also... I saw miss sarah and daisy last night :) We always go over to Daisys and talk about Claires for how many long hours. And Randy will just sit there and be like maan cant you bring any guys over? haha Daisys daughter Lily is sooo adorebale too. We were watching the Evanescence music videos and Lily was acting like a little rocker, shaking her head around and signing to the songs, and shes only three! it was soo cute :)
My mom got me some nice gifts last night for her little dinner thing. She got me a hippie book, a pretty insence holder from the crystal garden, some jasmine insense that smells like ass, but its ok because i have the good kinds anyway, and a nice watercolor paint set from Jerrys. Its all stuff that I love, and she knows it. I went out last weekend and bought her a really nice gift for 140 dollars at William Sanoma. It was expensive, but this is her birthday/ christmas present, so I figured its okay. Plus I wanted her to have something really nice. My sister loved the brittney spears perfume and jessica simpson lipgloss, but with her bad luck, she ended up accidently breaking the perfume bottle. My sister just isnt a gentle girl lol. I thought it was hilarious at the time. ANd I got my dad the new incubus CD, since he loves that band and he loved it. he knows I know just what to get him! Normally I give my parents a really nice painting of some sort for gift giving time, but this year Ive been to busy. My holiday shopping is almost over!!!
And its time for me to get to bed now since its almost 2 am!!!
Love Lexyyyyy
She says that if her boyfriend broke up with her, it would be extremely sad, but it wouldnt drive her off the edge, because she knows she can always find someone else. (there are so many fish in the sea) Her name is Maria, she is 23 and she has been dating Rob for 5 years. She works with me at Claires, and everytime we work together we are always laughing about something stupid, along with Agatha. We always imitate the stupid dances Sandra does like "the lawn mower' "the kitchen" "the bus driver" "the sprinkler" and we made our own new one, get ready.... its called "the pony" The three of us always have fun at work.
Maria and I both have the same pickiness in what we are attracted to in guys as far as appearance goes. We both like the tall skinny pale ones that have the rock look to them. Thats what I usually go for, tall and skinny. Out of the three guys I have had serious real feelings for, Andrew doesnt fit into that catagory. Infact when alot of my friends met him, they all thought he wasnt my type by his appearance. But out of those three guys, Andrew is the one that really holds a special place, and has for a long time. Anyways, Maria and I both have the same birthday month of April, we both like the same music, we both like to dress the same, we both have the same views on alot of things, and we both think we are like twins. She came over on Sunday to help me dye my hair and it turned out really good. I dyed it this burduny red color, and then she put thin black streaks in my hair and black in the underneath that has a red base. It looks really cool. Its hard to tell the difference between the red and black, so my hair just looks really dark, but its cool because everyone says it brings out the brown in my eyes, and they all love it :) The next thing Im doing to it is put crimson red streaks in my hair to give it a more red look. I cant wait!! One of these days we are gonna go to the Aventura mall and go shopping in hot topic and urban outfitters. Im due for some new clothes.
One of the girls I work with (Abby) just had her first longest relationship of a month with this boy Bobby. Its cool because its the first guy she has ever really had feelings for, cared about etc. i feel really bad for her though because he had to move to Tamapa and she took him to the train station the other day to say goodbye. I told her that I knew exactly how she felt, saying goodbye like that. And I promised her that one of these weekends when I go visit my old friends in Tampa, I would bring her with me so she can see bobby again.
Also... I saw miss sarah and daisy last night :) We always go over to Daisys and talk about Claires for how many long hours. And Randy will just sit there and be like maan cant you bring any guys over? haha Daisys daughter Lily is sooo adorebale too. We were watching the Evanescence music videos and Lily was acting like a little rocker, shaking her head around and signing to the songs, and shes only three! it was soo cute :)
My mom got me some nice gifts last night for her little dinner thing. She got me a hippie book, a pretty insence holder from the crystal garden, some jasmine insense that smells like ass, but its ok because i have the good kinds anyway, and a nice watercolor paint set from Jerrys. Its all stuff that I love, and she knows it. I went out last weekend and bought her a really nice gift for 140 dollars at William Sanoma. It was expensive, but this is her birthday/ christmas present, so I figured its okay. Plus I wanted her to have something really nice. My sister loved the brittney spears perfume and jessica simpson lipgloss, but with her bad luck, she ended up accidently breaking the perfume bottle. My sister just isnt a gentle girl lol. I thought it was hilarious at the time. ANd I got my dad the new incubus CD, since he loves that band and he loved it. he knows I know just what to get him! Normally I give my parents a really nice painting of some sort for gift giving time, but this year Ive been to busy. My holiday shopping is almost over!!!
And its time for me to get to bed now since its almost 2 am!!!
Love Lexyyyyy