I'm Back!!
It's true ... I have not died, though sometimes I think everything would be so much better if that were the case. Oh well, someone has to stay around to run the world, or at least CMU for another year!
I am sure I should spit out a novel, since the last time I updated was when I lost the Student Body Presidential election and tried very hard to order sex at Taco Bell. But ... I won't bore anyone with those details, for the most part.
The semester is over, and shit, the summer is half-way gone too. It sucks, that much is certain. My summer has been a living hell. I hate having emotions and feelings. Why do I need them, they are only bringing me down and making me regret any decision I have made this past year. Damn.
You know what really sucks ... what really sucks is when you think you find someone in your life that means the world to you, and you open up. Hell, I try not to - emotions lead to the dark side after all. Yet, after you open up, your insides get torn to pieces and this is not a good thing, for those of you who may enjoy that sort of thing. Not this kid!!
So the story for this morning, since I think I am still drunk from the case race last night (which my partner and I won - and I carried the team, hell yea!!) is that being in love with someone sucks. Well, it was wonderful for about nine months, but not now. No longer do I have my best friend.
The world is changing, and I am not doing anything to stop it, or to change with it. I am just "hiding" behind involvements that help others, except myself. How does that work, by the way? How can you help so many people, but for some damn odd reason, not help yourself?
I just want to quit everything and run away ...
I am sure I should spit out a novel, since the last time I updated was when I lost the Student Body Presidential election and tried very hard to order sex at Taco Bell. But ... I won't bore anyone with those details, for the most part.
The semester is over, and shit, the summer is half-way gone too. It sucks, that much is certain. My summer has been a living hell. I hate having emotions and feelings. Why do I need them, they are only bringing me down and making me regret any decision I have made this past year. Damn.
You know what really sucks ... what really sucks is when you think you find someone in your life that means the world to you, and you open up. Hell, I try not to - emotions lead to the dark side after all. Yet, after you open up, your insides get torn to pieces and this is not a good thing, for those of you who may enjoy that sort of thing. Not this kid!!
So the story for this morning, since I think I am still drunk from the case race last night (which my partner and I won - and I carried the team, hell yea!!) is that being in love with someone sucks. Well, it was wonderful for about nine months, but not now. No longer do I have my best friend.
The world is changing, and I am not doing anything to stop it, or to change with it. I am just "hiding" behind involvements that help others, except myself. How does that work, by the way? How can you help so many people, but for some damn odd reason, not help yourself?
I just want to quit everything and run away ...