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hey everybody. this is sarah. yay.
well i just thought i would update my thoughts and what not on here.
Moving out seems like such an acomplishment. (spelling? god i feel stupid that im an actual "adult" now but still dont know how to spell lol)
i kinda love being on my own. its pretty damn lonley though. i have to say..not much human contact besides the regular friends, neighbors and occasional family house stops. didnt ever think i would be home sick but i must say that is the case here. it doesnt really even feel like i moved out yet. still hasnt hit me. i love how i can just walk across the street and be at the beach if i ever need to get away from things though. went to libaray and got some books, think i might go read there tomorrow after work or something.
on the down side i havnt been to a good show in awhile! which is really depressing me. i thrive on live music and that aspect of my life has been lacking for awhile now. not because of money issues or transportation but nobody to go with! none of my friends want to do anything anymore because we have a place now. they just want to chill there-which is fine...but....i start going crazy if im not at a show at least 3 times a week. so i've been trying to meet new people to hang out with but its hard to meet new people if you dont go anywhere to meet them and i have nobody to go with me to go out so therefore its just a really bad cycle im stuck in at the moment. lol
got me a new tattoo by the way. its my first spider. going to get my whole right leg from the knee down sleeved in webs and spiders. yay.
i guess i feel a little bit more like a human lately with emotions and shit. really depressed one minute than sooo happy to finally be able to just be me and not live the life my parents want me to live. feels good to breathe.
i guess thats about all i wanted to ramble about.
take care.
X
Sarah
well i just thought i would update my thoughts and what not on here.
Moving out seems like such an acomplishment. (spelling? god i feel stupid that im an actual "adult" now but still dont know how to spell lol)
i kinda love being on my own. its pretty damn lonley though. i have to say..not much human contact besides the regular friends, neighbors and occasional family house stops. didnt ever think i would be home sick but i must say that is the case here. it doesnt really even feel like i moved out yet. still hasnt hit me. i love how i can just walk across the street and be at the beach if i ever need to get away from things though. went to libaray and got some books, think i might go read there tomorrow after work or something.
on the down side i havnt been to a good show in awhile! which is really depressing me. i thrive on live music and that aspect of my life has been lacking for awhile now. not because of money issues or transportation but nobody to go with! none of my friends want to do anything anymore because we have a place now. they just want to chill there-which is fine...but....i start going crazy if im not at a show at least 3 times a week. so i've been trying to meet new people to hang out with but its hard to meet new people if you dont go anywhere to meet them and i have nobody to go with me to go out so therefore its just a really bad cycle im stuck in at the moment. lol
got me a new tattoo by the way. its my first spider. going to get my whole right leg from the knee down sleeved in webs and spiders. yay.
i guess i feel a little bit more like a human lately with emotions and shit. really depressed one minute than sooo happy to finally be able to just be me and not live the life my parents want me to live. feels good to breathe.
i guess thats about all i wanted to ramble about.
take care.
X
Sarah