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I would hate to think anyones life is a sham or uneventful, but then why is mine? I know im not the easiest person to like and be friends with but i do it for a reason. I don't like fakers! Sometimes i wonder if im faking it? To whom you might ask? Dunno really maybe me or you or him or her. Does it really matter? That is the question...
I hate being taken for granted and I hate when I feel its my fault for feeling this way. It shouldn't be my fault it should be theirs and others that have caused it, not mine. I believe our society as a whole does this. Thinking one person can pick up the slack of two and so on. Well it doesn't and it never will be that way. Our society or peers/friends just make it that way. STOP!!
I don't know how to make it better anymore....
There has to be a line were its not my fault or my turn to take the heat. Please stop yelling at me for the thing that you have taught me and worst, learned to do. I can't make it better if you don't go that 100% with me and show me how to do it. I wanna re-learn how to do it all, But I can't. Not without you...
When no ones around to see me cry, I feel happy to let those tears fall from my cheeks. Those are the tears I earned to shed. Those are not fake. Those are real, just as I am.
Teach me
Love me
Respect me
Honor me
I thought I was worth it. Every day you some how prove me wrong. I've been an adult my whole life. I did things and saw things no child should ever have to endure. I thought it was for the best then, but now I think the opposite. I don't want this burden, this pain inside anymore. I wish I could give it to someone else and let them try and deal with it as long as I have and see if it makes a difference. Will it? No. I couldn't trust someone to hold that pain for me. nevermind then.
I hate being taken for granted and I hate when I feel its my fault for feeling this way. It shouldn't be my fault it should be theirs and others that have caused it, not mine. I believe our society as a whole does this. Thinking one person can pick up the slack of two and so on. Well it doesn't and it never will be that way. Our society or peers/friends just make it that way. STOP!!
I don't know how to make it better anymore....
There has to be a line were its not my fault or my turn to take the heat. Please stop yelling at me for the thing that you have taught me and worst, learned to do. I can't make it better if you don't go that 100% with me and show me how to do it. I wanna re-learn how to do it all, But I can't. Not without you...
When no ones around to see me cry, I feel happy to let those tears fall from my cheeks. Those are the tears I earned to shed. Those are not fake. Those are real, just as I am.
Teach me
Love me
Respect me
Honor me
I thought I was worth it. Every day you some how prove me wrong. I've been an adult my whole life. I did things and saw things no child should ever have to endure. I thought it was for the best then, but now I think the opposite. I don't want this burden, this pain inside anymore. I wish I could give it to someone else and let them try and deal with it as long as I have and see if it makes a difference. Will it? No. I couldn't trust someone to hold that pain for me. nevermind then.