i need an escape
hey every one
how are all of you doing? im ok just putting my memories, and feelings back together since my uncles death i've been very out of it. and thats dangerous at work cause im a senior on the truck so im first to go in if theres an emergency so if im not paying attention i could get some one hurt but i can't take a break cause they need me. yup but it's a job that carries big responsabilities which i need, if i had the chance to go to colledge i should of went but i wouldn't have grown up like i have with this profession. i wouldn't have to pay my own bills, live on my own, and i'd never know how the real world is outside of NH.
. but thats life we all grow up well some of us do. but now this world forces kids to grow up and leave there childhood behind to quick, it's a sad world but thats life. i know i want a girl friend i've had some horriable luck but i dunno. with my job it's hard on ppl cause i go out to sea a bit, but it makes me sick to see how some married ppl act they will fuck any thing that moves, or they wait till the girl get so drunk that they slid in for the kill or the score. ppl disgust me at times out here, but thats life i've always believed in honor and loyalty to the ppl i care about and love and thats all i ask in return but i doubt it even exist at in this generation any more. but maybe thats why i like fire fighting cause we throw are lives on the line to save ppl, if we fail we die, just trying to feel like i belong.
lately i've just been so lost trying to figure out why i should be alive. but the more i see the more i don't understand cause life keeps suprising me like that. when im down some thing will bring me up back to reality. for so long i was hooked on the idea my life would get better with a girl friend. and when i got one it did a bit but it wasn't it. i don't know i just live to be alive to see where this journey takes me, and to see what happens along the way. sure i still would like a girl friend but for now i think i'll just see what will happen. and who will show up in my life and steal my heart away. well world good bye again
-Greg B.
how are all of you doing? im ok just putting my memories, and feelings back together since my uncles death i've been very out of it. and thats dangerous at work cause im a senior on the truck so im first to go in if theres an emergency so if im not paying attention i could get some one hurt but i can't take a break cause they need me. yup but it's a job that carries big responsabilities which i need, if i had the chance to go to colledge i should of went but i wouldn't have grown up like i have with this profession. i wouldn't have to pay my own bills, live on my own, and i'd never know how the real world is outside of NH.
. but thats life we all grow up well some of us do. but now this world forces kids to grow up and leave there childhood behind to quick, it's a sad world but thats life. i know i want a girl friend i've had some horriable luck but i dunno. with my job it's hard on ppl cause i go out to sea a bit, but it makes me sick to see how some married ppl act they will fuck any thing that moves, or they wait till the girl get so drunk that they slid in for the kill or the score. ppl disgust me at times out here, but thats life i've always believed in honor and loyalty to the ppl i care about and love and thats all i ask in return but i doubt it even exist at in this generation any more. but maybe thats why i like fire fighting cause we throw are lives on the line to save ppl, if we fail we die, just trying to feel like i belong.
lately i've just been so lost trying to figure out why i should be alive. but the more i see the more i don't understand cause life keeps suprising me like that. when im down some thing will bring me up back to reality. for so long i was hooked on the idea my life would get better with a girl friend. and when i got one it did a bit but it wasn't it. i don't know i just live to be alive to see where this journey takes me, and to see what happens along the way. sure i still would like a girl friend but for now i think i'll just see what will happen. and who will show up in my life and steal my heart away. well world good bye again
-Greg B.