Left with a desire...
After work sitting at my computer, and i'm compelled to say that while i'm alone, you win, and I hope you're happy...
I yearn to burn under my own self destructive fire and find only a means to by which I can but damn myself from those very same flames to which I so long to feel the lick against my skin. I want to suffer, to feel hurt, to feel ashamed of myself, like i used to...but in it's place is just a hollow walkway that leads me back to happiness. Is it wrong to be passionately hated and not care, to be wished harm and welcome it knowing full well it isn't coming? Companions are everywhere to me it seems I only need to look...I just don't care enough...on that as well...I can't wait to move.
Acen is close and thankfully not too soon...
For those that my not yet know on here, we ended things, and not in the best ways. It could have gone better, but both sides had errors to make it not so...i can say i miss the hugs, can't say i enjoy the, "Please hit me with a brick in the face" look much though...it needs to stop.
-End of line.
I yearn to burn under my own self destructive fire and find only a means to by which I can but damn myself from those very same flames to which I so long to feel the lick against my skin. I want to suffer, to feel hurt, to feel ashamed of myself, like i used to...but in it's place is just a hollow walkway that leads me back to happiness. Is it wrong to be passionately hated and not care, to be wished harm and welcome it knowing full well it isn't coming? Companions are everywhere to me it seems I only need to look...I just don't care enough...on that as well...I can't wait to move.
Acen is close and thankfully not too soon...
For those that my not yet know on here, we ended things, and not in the best ways. It could have gone better, but both sides had errors to make it not so...i can say i miss the hugs, can't say i enjoy the, "Please hit me with a brick in the face" look much though...it needs to stop.
-End of line.