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I spent my day..
Cleaning up after annoying people.
Trying to start my car for 15 minutes while two mexicans watched me.
Trying to coax my kitten into being affectionate.
Playing Neopets.
Some Summer day... huh?
I have been feeling real weird lately..
I dont know what it is, its hard to explain.
It's like... Everyone I know has that one person they can always rely on. Or call their best friend, boyfriend, etc.
And I feel that I dont have that.. I have the best friends ever. But I'm not THE best friend. And it has just been hitting me lately. I think I've just been lonely lately. It's not like OMG I WANT A BOYFRIEND. because I dont really need a boyfriend. But it would be nice to be the special person to someone. I think it's just how I thought I might actually have that with Chris. Then I went to Germany, and nothing happened when I got back. He has my number and everything, but I guess I'm just not important. Or he's sitting at home, thinking the same thing about me. But I highly doubt that. Because in the end he is 20 years old, and I'm just that girl he had a fun time with two times.. I'm not that memorable.
It's like I saw this LJsecret a few months ago and it said something like 'I like to think that I have best friends, but it hurts when they are always each others number one's on myspace, and I'm always 3' And I didnt get that at first... but now I feel what that person was saying. It's an easy way of saying you want to be more.. and the person just used myspace and top 8 as a way of showing how he/she felt.. and i guess thats how I feel..
who knows.
Cleaning up after annoying people.
Trying to start my car for 15 minutes while two mexicans watched me.
Trying to coax my kitten into being affectionate.
Playing Neopets.
Some Summer day... huh?
I have been feeling real weird lately..
I dont know what it is, its hard to explain.
It's like... Everyone I know has that one person they can always rely on. Or call their best friend, boyfriend, etc.
And I feel that I dont have that.. I have the best friends ever. But I'm not THE best friend. And it has just been hitting me lately. I think I've just been lonely lately. It's not like OMG I WANT A BOYFRIEND. because I dont really need a boyfriend. But it would be nice to be the special person to someone. I think it's just how I thought I might actually have that with Chris. Then I went to Germany, and nothing happened when I got back. He has my number and everything, but I guess I'm just not important. Or he's sitting at home, thinking the same thing about me. But I highly doubt that. Because in the end he is 20 years old, and I'm just that girl he had a fun time with two times.. I'm not that memorable.
It's like I saw this LJsecret a few months ago and it said something like 'I like to think that I have best friends, but it hurts when they are always each others number one's on myspace, and I'm always 3' And I didnt get that at first... but now I feel what that person was saying. It's an easy way of saying you want to be more.. and the person just used myspace and top 8 as a way of showing how he/she felt.. and i guess thats how I feel..
who knows.