college life

[letxmexlovexme]

I miss David more than I've ever missed anything before in my life. My arms just feel so empty.... During the day, I feel so much pride and love spilling out of my heart and into my brain, but at night I just miss him so much, it becomes almost unbearable. I cant wait until boot camp is over.. oh goodness.. he's only been gone a week! I have such a feeling of being "whole" waiting so patiently for him at home.. I feel like this is right, I know this is worth it.. I've never felt so wonderful in all of my existence... but god I wish I didnt have to wait so long to feel him near me. I wish I knew what he was doing, how he was feeling.. everything... It will be better as soon as we can start writing each other. He should be able to send me something soon.. even though he wont have so much time to write to me.. just knowing that there wont be a day that goes by without him hearing from me.. He knows that I will always be here and I know it comforts him just being able to think about that, but I want to share my heart with him.. I want him to be able to read my dedication... Oh god do I love this man. He'll be home right after our one year anniversary..what a long time! for both him and i! ooo goodness. Someone talk to me. KT. you knew him well. If you read this.. Talk to me next time you are online Sari2513. His family called to check on me today while they were at grandma's for dinner.. this is the first sunday dinner him and i have missed in months... I cant wait to go home this weekend and see them all again. Yup... thats right.. I wouldnt miss a single dinner if I could help it, of course I'll show up when I am home for the weekends! I just really want to smell him too. perhaps I will steal his cologne from his house too.. he left all his sweatshirts and CDs with me when he moved me into my dorm.. OH and the blanket I made him for christmas with our initials on it, but he told me that I could take whatever else I wanted to remind me of us or to make it easier to miss him! lol. I told Liz I would take her shopping on Sunday.. I cant wait. I miss her as much as I miss him. this college thing is rough at first!

Ooo goodness. I can stop now. I guess I am just a little un-used to feeling this much dedication. Honestly.. with anyone else, I wouldnt even try..but I want nothing more than to be waiting for him each and every time he comes home. Call me sick, crazy, whatever.. But i love this boy, and I know some of you can respect that.

thanks for letting me rant. Sam, anyone.. Talk to me. you all remind me of him in so many ways! AH i am crazy. I need to go to bed

GOodnight!