SON OF A BITCH!!
i have been feeling like shit for the past few weeeks and stuff....and yes it is about him (mike)...hmm i dont kno why but lately ive missed him alot and ive been questioning if i really do want to be with him....i dont kno why i have this feeling that we wont last long and i dont kno and like a bunch of stuff came up at once like out of no where... they told me that he had a crush on rubens sister and this was the same time that he was all over me like " i like you" and stuff and then i busted him with the name "Leslie" on his pants and that chick was the one that liked mike and i think he liked her too and well i think they even went out ...so i asked him "why is her name on your pants" him: "oh its becuz she was writting on me but i didnt want her to" me: "well if you didnt want her to then you wouldnt of have let her" then he didnt really say much and i really do want to trust him....i really do but i dont kno he goes to job corp all week and i dont kno what happens over there....AHH! i dont kno but...ahhh i dont kno...and then to top this off for the past two weeks we have only been spending one day together....im going mad!!!! and its BARELY MONDAY!!! i dont get to see him until friday!!! but i dont kno i left him a message on gaia that said "oh we need to talk blah blah blah" and i went to his profile a little while ago and i saw that he had deleted the comment.....WTF! i have a feeling that he likes some one else.... **sighs** i really do....its either that or he just doesnt like me anymore.......i wanna cry now...i really do....but i wont! not over a dumbass guy that has my heart on a string!!! fuck no....it just hurts...it really does...but yeh i dont know if hes gunna call me and be like "whats up with the comment?" and you kno what to be honest with you i dont kno what im going to tell him..i dont kno i mean i can describe it to my best friend and i think about it and when it comes to telling him...i just blank out and i have no idea wut im gunna tell him...and thats if that fuck even calls me...so yeh whatever...i need to be hugged right now i really do...blarg!! i hate you!!
