Is it still you and me against the world?...
The past few days have been pretty turbulent.
I feel as though i have one good thing in my life, and im trying my hardest to hold onto it, and keep it as close to me as possible, but at the same time pushing it away, and i feel so crappy about that. like im just gonna screw up again like i did with jesse, tyler, larry, hammond, matt... but im kinda glad i screwed up with them now that i think about it. because i found out what love truly is, and it wasnt any of them.
Im gonna go through a whole day of school today, and it seems so easy, but its so fucking hard. I have the easiest schedule in the world
health->english->history->chorus->study hall/gym->lunch->career and financial management->study hall->math
but for some reason i cant get through it.. but i can today. all i have left is study hall and math. no blue slips, havent even seen johnson. and im okay with school. i talked to mrs d'angelo about health and shes cutting me serious slack, shes so awesome. she just wants me to get the hell out of there, its okay. im fine with that. i just want to do it on my own i guess, but if i cant i cant. whatever...
ive been spending all my time with either <3ror, andrea, or tyler... i love my best friends..theyre amazing. my moms been hard on me lately, but its understandable. im gonna stay home today for most of the day, i just get lonely thats all, but hopefully ror comes over and spends time with me. cause that would be awesome.
i took friday off from work and im spending it with Ror.. and saturday i work 12-8, not too excited about that. im gonna try to get Tyler a job at BK, cause i love him and he needs a job.
im exhausted and for some reason couldnt sleep last night, i was up till 4:00...after that cause it takes me like 15 minutes to fall asleep..i just wasnt tired, i was so upset/sad/depressed, and it wasnt really for any reason impaticular, and i mean i have trouble sleeping sometimes but not like that, not where im just not tired untill i literally cant keep my eyes open at 4 in the morning... i called Rory because he makes me feel so happy..but..i just ended up being a bitch..and i felt so bad. so i called him and woke him up at 330 and apologized cause i felt so fucking bad..im such a bitch to him, i hate it. because i love him so much... ugh... i dont want to get into this again.
im gonna go.
later kids<3
I feel as though i have one good thing in my life, and im trying my hardest to hold onto it, and keep it as close to me as possible, but at the same time pushing it away, and i feel so crappy about that. like im just gonna screw up again like i did with jesse, tyler, larry, hammond, matt... but im kinda glad i screwed up with them now that i think about it. because i found out what love truly is, and it wasnt any of them.
Im gonna go through a whole day of school today, and it seems so easy, but its so fucking hard. I have the easiest schedule in the world
health->english->history->chorus->study hall/gym->lunch->career and financial management->study hall->math
but for some reason i cant get through it.. but i can today. all i have left is study hall and math. no blue slips, havent even seen johnson. and im okay with school. i talked to mrs d'angelo about health and shes cutting me serious slack, shes so awesome. she just wants me to get the hell out of there, its okay. im fine with that. i just want to do it on my own i guess, but if i cant i cant. whatever...
ive been spending all my time with either <3ror, andrea, or tyler... i love my best friends..theyre amazing. my moms been hard on me lately, but its understandable. im gonna stay home today for most of the day, i just get lonely thats all, but hopefully ror comes over and spends time with me. cause that would be awesome.
i took friday off from work and im spending it with Ror.. and saturday i work 12-8, not too excited about that. im gonna try to get Tyler a job at BK, cause i love him and he needs a job.
im exhausted and for some reason couldnt sleep last night, i was up till 4:00...after that cause it takes me like 15 minutes to fall asleep..i just wasnt tired, i was so upset/sad/depressed, and it wasnt really for any reason impaticular, and i mean i have trouble sleeping sometimes but not like that, not where im just not tired untill i literally cant keep my eyes open at 4 in the morning... i called Rory because he makes me feel so happy..but..i just ended up being a bitch..and i felt so bad. so i called him and woke him up at 330 and apologized cause i felt so fucking bad..im such a bitch to him, i hate it. because i love him so much... ugh... i dont want to get into this again.
im gonna go.
later kids<3