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i don't know anyone who hasn't hurt me. everyone...you don't understand what it feels like to not have one person...one family member or friend who hasn't hurt you. you would be as dead inside as i am now.
i don't think i'll ever smile or laugh or giggle ever again. i don't think that there will be any more times of happiness or intimate moments.
fuck me. fuck me. fuck me. fuck me times twenty. my stomach hurts so bad and my eyes burn from me trying to keep tears from spilling.
over and over and over again in the car i told myself...
this is why meghan doesn't trust...
this is why meghan doesn't love...
and for the most..meghan doesn't fucking cry over boys or love. never again
why the fuck did i let them in? how could i let someone hold my heart after it being thrown and beaten so many times by those who thought it was a toy....who think my life is a game.
...what is life without love?...nothing, it's a dream
you live for your dreams...
what do you dream about then....to have happiness, to find someone who won't lie and play and manipulate.
i just can't deal this time. there isn't going to be a next time for me to open up my heart and emotions to someone, to anyone.
you will look into my eyes and see stone. you will touch my face and feel no emotion, no quivering lips, no smile twitching to come out.
today i built the gate and have locked the doors. there is nothing you can do.
i don't think i'll ever smile or laugh or giggle ever again. i don't think that there will be any more times of happiness or intimate moments.
fuck me. fuck me. fuck me. fuck me times twenty. my stomach hurts so bad and my eyes burn from me trying to keep tears from spilling.
over and over and over again in the car i told myself...
this is why meghan doesn't trust...
this is why meghan doesn't love...
and for the most..meghan doesn't fucking cry over boys or love. never again
why the fuck did i let them in? how could i let someone hold my heart after it being thrown and beaten so many times by those who thought it was a toy....who think my life is a game.
...what is life without love?...nothing, it's a dream
you live for your dreams...
what do you dream about then....to have happiness, to find someone who won't lie and play and manipulate.
i just can't deal this time. there isn't going to be a next time for me to open up my heart and emotions to someone, to anyone.
you will look into my eyes and see stone. you will touch my face and feel no emotion, no quivering lips, no smile twitching to come out.
today i built the gate and have locked the doors. there is nothing you can do.