i dont know anymore

[lettinggo_again]

it used to be that i would sit and tri to figure things out and at som poit i thought i did but relly i havent figured anything out im just as lost as ever i mean i need to figure out who exactly i am i need to stop shiting myself.

let me see if i can write what i am or will be
1.artistic
2.friendly
3.ugly
4.lonely
5.doesnt know what he wants
6.tortured
7.unlikeable
8.stupid
9.unwanted
10.diffient
11.not like anybody
12.unlikeable
13.helpless
14.some one everybody could live without!

i need your help(any one)to define me it sounds stupid but i need to know how i look in other peoples minds please make a list i relly need this.

thank you