to you
hello sorry ive been away but this lj isnt my hole life(more than one person said why havent u writen in your lj)ow and ive been happy cause there is so much to be happy about(im fucking sarcastic). And the reason i havent called is ummm well the phone works both ways! Iev dnot no hwo 2 sepll WHO GIVES A FUCK AS LONG AS YOU GET IT DONT FUCKING COMMENT AND SAY SOMETHING ABOUT SPELLING,GRAMMER. SHIT I DONT GIVE A FUCK YOU KNOW IVE GOT ALOT OF OTHER THINGS TO WORRY ABOUT OTHER THAN MY FUCKING SPELLING/GRAMMER OK GOOD. And yes kill yourself oowww i want to do it hey just cause your all mr loathing sad i cant help myself guy doesnt mean you can drag me down and make me feel worse shit i may be deppressed but i know that there might be help im not abandoning all my hope. Also im not jthm nor am i trying to be him i am what i am if i started talking about how im so great or that i want that relly hot girl that sits in back of me in english(just a forenctance)that doesnt mean im some guy in a teen movie its just me just because some of my traits resemble a fictional comic doesnt mean im trying to be COOL by lieing about my life you only lie to yourself when you lie and i dont lie i may joke but no lies(okay i hadnt been awake that long but people do exagerate oKaY but it is posible cause ive done it before soyeah no lies oww and i have only been to the hospital 3 times i just wanted to see what yall would say and then went along with it to fucking piss yall off im sorry but yall have so much doubt just listen and see what happens in a later thingy ok im sorry)but other than that im all me i do rarely sleep,i eat like 3 times every week,i have a erge thats so strong that some day i feel i might snape and relly kill someone,i hate assholes,i want to die so bad but i promissed some people id always be there for them and i always keep my promisses,i also have a girlfriend now that i do love with allthe heart i have left but there is still a gapeing hole in me that hasnt healed,my wish is to just be left alone and by that i mean strand my self somewere and never see another human for the rest of my life but i cant do that cause that follows the same lines as suicide owell so jugde my life ripp it apart tell me how pathetic i am i dont care i just did this for me!